SuppaDuppaCrap-Island Vers.

Lover: Favourite part!

2011-10-24T19:51:00.002+08:00

Enough said? hehe. Let your imagination roam free and bring you the the epitome of love

Hijrah:A flight to escape danger

2011-10-19T10:30:00.000+08:00

Few more days, i would wake up and realize that i am no longer in the heart of Malaysia. Sigh~ is it going to be tough? yes! am i going to be ok? yes! :D

what do they have in Penang eh? Not the island particularly. All i can expect is; life is not going to be that much different aside from the pretty much 'no traffic jam' moment.

Pulau Pinang, be nice to me.

The not pretty thing in life

2011-10-18T14:18:00.001+08:00

I don't have a pretty image of marriage in my thick skull. Sooner or later it will crumble before the eyes. Reason(s) can be made up. Excuse(s) can be given. The effect however, is permanent and damage control is very much needed.

I am pretty much blabbering on the fact that i have to face this problem almost everyday. Its not sweet. Its not dandy. But it is Family. No matter how i loathe the fact of betrayal and deceiving. I couldn't just walk away and leaving people behind. I can not close my eyes and pretend that the world is a huge orange bright cute balloon. What I can and have to do is; grow up faster and be a matured man than a matured lad.

How I wish things are simpler. :)

I am vowing to myself to only consider marriage..if and only if, I am a better person than who I am today. Till then, bleargh~ single!

Life 24.05. Step At A Time

2011-10-17T22:47:00.001+08:00

Its been a while since I last wrote something here. It doesn't feels right any more writing. feels awkward. not a writer's block or any of those theorem. Just a sensation of not having anything to jot. Rather than giving in to the laziness of mere jobless mind, I force myself to scribble anything here. Blabbering of nothingness is a start, no? Reason for the insincere writing? I can say to mature myself and being more elaborate in life. Somehow I have this idea that people who can express in writing have a very complex and active receptors that govern the tiny little brain to emit ideas, thoughts, emotions and neural-electricity hormone better. Sophisticated is the word. This writing of mine can be a poignant remembrance of how i live my life day to day? perhaps.

Inferiority Complex:- "An unrealistic feeling of general inadequacy caused by actual or supposed inferiority in one sphere, sometimes marked by aggressive behaviour in compensation."(Ask Mr.Google)

Disclaimer: I did not have the above psychological disorder. But I do sometimes feel inferior to people around me. My circle of friend (sphere) do affect me one way or another. Its the emotional cost you have to pay when MOST if not all people surrounding you are high achiever, cream of the crop OR the very least a laid back person which don't face much of a problem right now as in this particular moment. THE silver lining of this slight emotional turbulence; I have the urge to develop the inner quality of myself. To excel and to prove not to the world, not to my family but to myself. Devoted to hunt the jubilant and exuberance quality in life.

I have to add that, in life, I did pave everything nicely; but somehow, LIFE itself wants me to mature the Hard way. LIFE lead me to meet dubious and crooks. LIFE associates me with them; not to drown me, but to teach me one of the important lesson: "When you have money and power, Do not be greedy and Do not breach people's trust."

It is nothing to be proud of, but I have been there and did unto me :)

Hoping that i will be wiser.

***

Ya. Saya menganggur. Sewaktu temuduga tempoh hari, saya bersembang lebat dengan panel temuduga dengan memberikan kata-kata yang mampan:

Question: What do you learn in University that is useful in your life.

Me: In life, in order to excel in what we do we have to have 3 things: Patience, Passion and Persistence.

Q: Other than that?

Me: We have to be Independent and Interdependent.

....due to this I got the JOB :) Feels good to know the fact that i still have it. The ability to BS

Its too NUMB for Hari Raya

2011-08-30T20:39:00.003+08:00

I am just a human. A mere slave of the higher power.

but i, myself cant run from mistakes. Thus i continuously apologize to my love one, friends and people who knows me.

Somehow this Eid Fitr opens my heart to forgive and forget as life is not long enough for me to keep hatred nesting in my heart. Alas, the one person i want to forgive did not even utter the words of forgiveness. Ego is eating your soul! and mine too.

I have forgave you but things will never be the same. I will still hate you....Ayah.

*********

A very NUMB day for me.

I cant?

2011-03-27T19:08:00.002+08:00

i typed : blogger.com

get to the login page. enter my id and password.

click the new post button.i stunned.

i cant write. Not even one full sentence with half glass empty of idea. Seriously?? i thought i can ramble much?

well. i got the answer. Lately i seldom read. i seldom watch news. why? particularly because i hate the bias. Mostly because i dont find it interesting to watch/read news whereby people are more like acting rather than being them self. funny.

all i read is about my work related. I dont have time/energy/will to read anymore.

Now i understand why Iqra(meaning:read!) is a big deal. i guess i have to read more to write. have to read more to talk. by talking, i mean speak/talk with ideas and brain still attached up there. not just stupid rambling like some jokers.

Kan?

.. -- .. ... ... -.-- --- ..- -.. .- -- -. -- ..- -.-. .... -- .-..

2011-03-10T15:33:00.003+08:00

for some reason i love this song very much. Maybe because it portray how i felt right now. The feeling of lonesome and missing someone.

Sometimes i think that song are more poetic in yesteryears. I mean it is simple yet poetic. No need to make it lengthy, complex nor sappy~ yet they still can move people's heart (especially me) and the message deliver.

simple yet beautiful; somewhat like KISS: Keep It Simple & Sweet.

To YOU (You know who you are); i am very damn sorry that i am being an arse and keep on making your life hell and miserable. But in my heart (No need to go deep pun. ) I miss you very damn much! Muah!

Life; heck its never fair.

2011-03-10T07:06:00.002+08:00

There are no such thing as a perfect life.

Yeah. i have said it. there will always be too much of some salt and less sugar or too much of sugar and less salt. its life. we as a mere human cant and will not change that. how to live this life? tolerance. its up to us whether to tolerate or not to.

For example; look at me. look at this blog. its been ages since i have a proper time to write here. even to jot anything seems impossible. why? well maybe the fact that half of my brain is used to manage the project i was assigned to do. the other half is trying to deal with personal problem myself been trying to deal with since last year.

I would never say that i regret changing my career path from a geotechnical side to subsea installation. it is a great choice and a blessed move. i was and am blessed with a lot of thing in this new place. some are things that i never imagine myself doing it, but i did it! but as i mention few para above, life is not perfect. while i think that my life would go on a smooth road, my personal life is like riding a damn old motor cabuk on unpaved road. full with bump and skid. its true. its not pretty.

same goes to the monetary-wise. i am being paid better from my previous company, but as the old proverb: makin besar periuk, makin banyak kerak. something like the more you have, the more you spend. yup. i am now living paycheck to paycheck trying to balance and check my cash-flow. Every month, mortgage, loan, cards, bills, etc.. yeah~

but i am somewhat thankful and feel like i was blessed. a friend are willing to let me stay in his house without having to pay the rent. some people might ask me; why the heck i dont want to stay with my family (read: in Selayang)? it is quite close to KL. Around 15km give or take. Its true, i am fortunate to have family to live quite close to city center. by right i should save and just stay with em. Aside from the bustling traffic along Jln Kuching, there are reasons why i choose to live by my own. i know its not the best decision but its good enough for me.

yes life is treating us bad. yes life is treating us with all the joy we can have. we can blame our life all we want. but remember; life is unfair, but God is!

am not a pious one. i admit that i dont even try to be one. but i am trying to live my life without having to owe myself to anyone. i had been others's 'subject' for too long in the past 10years. its me time now :)

Cheers.

Annyong Seoul!

2011-02-23T09:25:00.003+08:00

writing from korea :P

waiting the cancelled flight due to weather. Fog is to thick for the flight to take off.

yeah.i am bragging now: hanging out in the Business Lounge.hahah.ok done.

im not a Korean Wave freak. Unlike my other friends who love korean drama(kdo) and korean music so much. well..i am more of a "i listen and watch things i can understand" kinda person :P

anyway since korean dont speak much english; its kinda hard to catch what they are trying to say. But hey, who says english need to be spoken in only one way? slang and accent make it lovely :)

so here are the basic words for you to start with if you are in Korea. i believe in us trying to assimilate/respect their language would make them feels better; thus welcoming us with their warm smile!

HELLO : annyong
Good bye: (to someone staying) annyonghi kyeseyo
Thank you : kamsa hamnida

I used "kamsa Hamnida" to everyone looks korean to my eyes even in KLIA :P and to my surprise one of the MAS Stewardess is a korean! hehe.i know she is out of my league! but still being charming is not an offense :) she likes the way i greet her with "annyong" and thank her with "kamsa hamnida"

well for you folks out there. Remember whenever you want to go to other places. Try to learn a bit of their language. We are showing respect to their culture in a subtle way :)

Cheers.! Annyonghi kyeseyo

bYe

2011-01-23T10:57:00.002+08:00

if it weren't for you i don't deserve this.

it seems like no news from you.

i guess you are done with me :(

bye my darling.

im out for a while

2011-01-21T22:54:00.001+08:00

i think i need to back off and ponder for a while.

be less curious and anxious.

im learning on how to be a better man :|

gonna concentrate on my work. at least that can bring me more happiness

2010 bye---*---hi 2011

2010-12-31T11:14:00.002+08:00

the end of 2010 is closing in like nobody's business. its like 13hours or so. what had i went through? A LOT! its a freaking roller coaster of emotion. personal life, career life, family and even loved one. i was so down to the extent of wanting to move out, away from tanahtumpahnyadarahku (read:cool!). i was so happy that i want to scream my lung out on the top of Kinabalu Tip (well, i did that :P).

well, lets get the negative things out first :)

I have had:

bitter argument with my family A LOT! especially with my dad. Sorry ayah. well, i am blessed with this stubbornness from someone ? :P
left my previous company where i was groomed and trained to become an offshore geotechnical engineer (mind you, i still puke a lot when the ocean plays that sway music of hers.). 8months + 1year 4months is a very long dude. i did miss them/the office once in a while. BUT never had i miss the management and the bosses :P
Lost 'Tok' to cancer. well, though he is not my blood-related tok and the effect of him going is not major to my life unlike him, but i felt his absence and still feeling it.
lost two close friend of mine. one due to lies and betrayals; man how i wish sometimes i dont even have that kind of friend. but we are human and a mere homo-sapiens that each are not perfect and flaws in and out. Acceptance and forgiveness makes the world goes around peacefully. i guess? but hey! i have the privilege to tell stories to my kids how daddy is being fooled and betrayed :p that is uber cool! ----------And the other one, due to distance and difference of lifestyle.well, scrap that. i dont mean lost as in hilang or what not, but maybe because we dont hang a lot like those all days and we barely shares anything anymore. something like kindergarten's kid; when they grow up, they tend to have different friends.
several fight and pause period with the love one. yeah, i do have someone.but i rather not share (does this mean that i'm stingy?) with people literally share (mind you!) or even talk about. being too insecure? nah~ am just having a personal space.
moved out from bangi :( so sad~ bangi is like sorga makan sedap dan senang for me. As much pain moving out from bangi, its more painful to admit that i did love bangi....not the people as much :P but the FOOD!! (location wise, i only have Alamanda to browse around when im bored. so it sucks!)
fooled by the love one :P countless of time and im loving it <--yup the last 3 words that make me really-really..."huh?"
.....i am and will be in debt for the 25 years to come.

For the Positive part and the happy things that i got to do in 2010. countless and super duper awesome!

i have had:

A freaking new job! subsea and what not. And I get to choose how to mould this system :P
50250 yawl!!! my new office rocks! seriously its next to Hard Rock Cafe..what can be more ROCK than that???
ate,eaten or eat luxurious food...name it and i'll says been there, done that! owh and i pay $0. nothing is better and tastier than free food!
a new car name horny <---:) this is the first public announcement and i feel so poyo (read:full of myself, contented, show off) hahaha. but i still love Red Kandi!!
a new place to call home! in like 1year to go.
a new place to call home! (its not really mine though) but Jade Tower is super duper awesome! but hey, ampang is kinda not as luxurious as bangi in terms of food and its easiness to get around.
travel abroad more often :P once again, i dont pay for it :P
been on the top of Borneo's Tip! <--highest orgasmic feeling in term of height and degree of orgasm. wow!!!

well..that is it i guess. wrapping up my 2010. i hope i dont lose anymore friend and instead lose some weight :P

cheers guys/girls.

Azam 2011: nak kahwin? bole?

erk...bang!

2010-12-22T15:29:00.003+08:00

i am in a fight i guess.

cant let my guard down.

always vigilant.

i tried walking with (v) peace sign hold up high.

but when i realize, it was too late.

i got shot at the back. i got slice. ouch.

when things started to calm. it's a lie. there is a soldier pointing gun to me.

my oh my. what a war. never will it stops. when there are so many secrets...

BANG!

So Grow up! and adapt to it

2010-12-09T12:57:00.002+08:00

last nite was one of the most boring and loneliest nite of my life.

like any loser from loserville, i just stay home after long hour "working" doing chores, some TV and off to bed.

oh.i had the dinner of my dream since i was a small kid. I had 2 popsicle; paddle-pop ice cream. TRUELY suppa duppa yummy :) anywho, i am not sure is this the life of a working adult or it is just me. I am freaking lazy to move my fat ass even to get food. i rather stay home and eat whatever i have; which comes to the paddle-pop! Suppa duppa yummy.

I text(s)-ed somebody(s) who i thought would care.but to no avail. hah! a real loser i guess. from a LOSERVILLE! haha...

****

loneliness seriously kill dude; its like a prolonged sickness. First come the loneliness, then come the boredom, then come the loser-ness and then you will feel the "what-the-F" feeling(s). its like a multiple acute syndrome. it will tangle your organ part by part. so is the loneliness.

anyway, when people ask me to "grow up", i cant help but ponder, wonder or whatever you want to call it, have i not grew? am i not growing? am i still a child to you? i guess, i must have been really-really childish and immature i guess to get that. do i deserve to get it? hell i dont know. i think i am a capable grown ups. a young adult :P who is capable to handle all sort of problems. physically, mentally and emotionally. Life has thrown me a lot of problems mind you. i have faced financial problem. family problem(s). Problem(s) with my superior in work place. Job-related problem(s). Self-personal problem(s). I had been backstab, lied to, manipulated and laughed at by friend(s). Which all of them require me to be fit physically and emotionally. I believe that everything are in place because, i did not commit suicide; nor i do drugs & alcohol. i didnt throw tantrum. so i think i manage well all my problems. Oh! and i did not bring it home and throw tantrum to others who did not deserve to get it from me.

Woke up early morning to get surprise by a simple phrase of "GROW UP" was quite......well, in other words, i dont think i deserve that. If growing up means i have to live my life as an asshole who dont care much about others or if it means i have to be heartless and only focus on my work. well Thanks but really......NO thanks. I would rather be a child with passion and joy for caring others. heck, i would rather be a baby that cry for attention but with pure heart and no ill-intention. I would rather not to grow up!

2minutes till check in

2010-11-26T14:54:00.003+08:00

am at lcct.

waiting for the cheap flight to come by.

sigh.i hate waiting.

oh.

especially in a place where flies are the regular customer of starbuck.yeah....i dont like starbuck much. but they are the only one who serve free wifi yang stabil (gua lupe eja stabil in english.yeay2..pity me) hence lepak starbuck.

hungry thirsty and poor. haha.what a life for an engineer.

cheers

Aku kasi pilihan aku/"tiang KLCC"...Dia Pilih 'tiang KLCC' dowh.

2010-11-26T09:25:00.004+08:00

Buat Lu yang gua respek.

Lu nak lepak hangout ngan die, lu pigi la.

lu nak sembang tepuk tampar ngan die lu pegi la.

lu nak dakap mesra manja pon. go ahead i tell u.

Lu nak telanjang ghairah dengan die pon, gua tak rasa itu problem besar.

Tapi gua rasa, belum masa lagi untuk gua labuhkan ego gua. Dan salah cara lu suruh gua londehkan ego gua sambil tunding cara gua yang salah sebab ego.

gua rasa cara gua tak salah. gua emosi bersebab. sebab pagar yang gua harap da hempuk sawah padi gua. abis! dah tu, tak kan lu nak gua rilek je.

infact lu, gua da cuba-cuba buat rilek.tapi gua rasa wrong.pastu pulak gua rasa, ada asas la gua nak marah. jadi even pagi tadi gua buat-buat chill and tak amik port sangat, tapi dalam hati gua panas burning dowh sebab lu boleh tuding jari cakap cara gua salah.

lu da rasa lu ok, go ahead without hesitation. tapi gua still rasa ade barrier between gua ngan die. gua tak mintak die datang sujud kaki gua, jilat cagu gua. Tak.gua tak mintak. Gua cakap senang, selagi die tak call gua ke, tak cari gua ke. selagi tu la gua malas nak layan. bukan salah gua ape. pasal ape lu plak nak suroh gua mend the things??

sekian saja disini kot warkah gua untuk lu. lu pikir la baik-baik mana yang lu rasa boleh mententeramkan jiwa lu. da besar panjang, gua rase tak elok kalau gua forbid larang lu bagai.

cheers lu.

************

p/s: ilham berbahasa selepas tonton "Remaja Comolot depan Pavi."

Quickie.EnGelish Rasty

2010-11-22T12:48:00.002+08:00

My English is very much rusty to the point where the metal can be crack easily.

here is the thing. my company email are web based. we dont use Microsoft Exchange for "i dont know why" reason. anyway, IN the 'compose' pop up window where i should write the email, it doesnt offer me grammar check.

SO! when i was typing some email, i was stuck at........"shit, how to spell colleague?" seriously. my first try was colleuge and i find it awkward. so i start to think and stupid me, i cant figure out how. i know its league after the col. but i cant even spell league after that. wtf aite?hahaha.blimey!

i am a rusted mind. one hit wonder maybe :p

So thats about it. my quickie on my ignorance which is not a bliss..

opposite attracts

2010-11-21T12:37:00.002+08:00

have they told you yet that opposite attracts?

well. i have a soft spot for a geeky girl. can even go head over heels.

the way i see it, i am a hot guy then. because opposites attracts :D

p/s: my english is rusty; Semalam i cakap "everyone knew you go to toilet just now".....should have used went..the second that go word came out of my mouth...damn! i "face-palm" myself. dang! kelakar sial

Everyday oso got nothing to do

2010-11-19T14:44:00.002+08:00

Wow.

its scorching hot today. damn it sun. be gentle on us.

anyway anywho, i have spent almost everyday of my working day doing nothing :(

yeah.i am that loser.so any suggestion? cool site or awesome reading?

yeah deyna, you! have something good for me?

by the way i do think that my vocab is freakishly limited.wow.pity me. all i can say is awesome.cool.great stuff.awesome brilliant mate :P

might be nerd-ing and geek-ing myself tonite with HP. Hell i read all of the book. so why not eh?

oh crap.

losing in a way is still a happy ending

2010-11-18T14:49:00.004+08:00

it is sad really.

to lose people you care and love.

by whatever reason it is still hard.

maybe that is why people cry on the day of a wedding.

to 'lose' someone that we care and love.

even though it doesn't happen to me (yet) , but i understand it now.

the idea of having someone is not really there and diminished.

even if it sounds cruel, but we human are all cruel in one way or not.

got to face the fact the hard way or the other.

easiest way, be happy to the one we care even if it means losing them. its hard but that is the easiest way to move on and live a healthy life. be it for you or for your love one.

p/s: thanks deyna. i was intoxicated by ...errr.... ok aku tersilap.haha

Lembu Korban gi sorga.

2010-11-18T10:17:00.002+08:00

semalam hari raya aid adha. aku tak rasa special. makan cuma up a notch dengan lemang, rendang dan laksam. Lunch dengan Sup daging qurban. oh. aku tak muak bau daging. mungkin gara-gara sepagi lepas melahap sarapan aku join tolong lapah-lapah. enam ekor lembu tumbang. tenaga kerja pakar: 3 orang; tenaga kerja average: 5 orang; tenaga kerja dengan kemahiran asas: 10 orang.AJK (Aye Jong Kalut; Read: tukang sebok buat-buat pandai): too many to count.

bukan aku nak mengumpat pakcik-pakcik sambil boasting around sebetapa bagus dan cekap versi gentlemen-nya aku. Just nak kongsi kenapa aku rasa macam nak lempang pintu tandas semalam.

the first thing when bergotong royong; Understanding. kene faham saling memahami. Dengan kata lain, anda fahamkan kebolehan dan keupayaan anda. bila dah tak pandai nak potong lapah, beri ruang kepada yang mahir dan 'boleh' atau mampu. dah tak pandai lapah, tapi nak tolong, jadi budak-budak pon apa salah? tolong la pegang kaki lembu yang berat itu. malas? apa kata selia timbang berat daging yang dah dilapah? malas? tolong angkat hasil lapahan dari tempat sembelih ke rendezvous point? malas? dok diam-diam dengan makcik-makcik hidang air la bai.

yang aku tak faham, da pakcik tak gheti; yang kome menyebok dok nak potong gak buat ape? kang susah orang lain nak keroje? ape ke bangang sangat kamu ni yob. dah tu dah salah potong; lu boleh pulak cakap; "kita bukan butcher" sambil senyum nipis. nak je aku rodok perut ko guna bayonet ak47 di tangan

Pengajaran: aku pon 4tahun lepas tak reti gak tolong-tolong. tapi apa aku buat, aku dok tepi, tolong angkat daging/tulang dan menguruskan logistik dari tempat sembelih ke rendezvous point. aku observe, perhati dan belajar. aku kotorkan tangan aku mencuci perut lembu (its not a nice scene nor scent!). Udah name nye gotong royong yob. Buat mana kamu gheti. Sudah belajar pelan-pelan. lama-lama tau la teman serba sedikit. OBSERVE AND LEARN

aku ulang point pertama; you should know your capability. this is to ensure smooth sailing. gotong-royong ni need us to work as a machine. do task you are best at or ABLE doing.

satu lagi, disebabkan yang sembelih dan lapah muslim, selamat saya mengatakan yang majoriti adalah melayu. Bila dah melayu berkumpul; macam-macam lah :D aku tak kisah pasal budak-budak rempit nak berborak gaya mereka sambil mengutuk anak orang gaya rempit mereka. Sebab? walau bingit telinga mendengar, tapi budak-budak ini yang pegang kaki, angkat daging, tolong itu tolong ini sampai bedarah-darah seluar levis siam. bangle besi seinci tebal pon tak kesah kene darah. itu aku applaud. tapi bila pakcik (rujuk pakcik diatas) yang bukan butcher itu mengeluarkan kata-kata yang aku rasa patut dah tak ada orang me-layu kan diri macam tu, aku snap sial. "kita bukan butcher. tak apa lah"; perangai melayu kuno yang cepat berpuas hati. tidak mahu mengaku kekurangan dan salah. and most disturbing is the fact that he still got "tak apalah" attitude. serious buat snap. fucking oldhag. he drag people down with that. orang lain semangat nak buat yang terbaik. bukan dah zohor pon. lambat lagi. aku bukan perfectionist. tapi kerja yang dilakukan tidak sampai PAR. itu pasal aku marah. Sendiri sudah 'faham' sendiri bukan butcher, tidak mahir, tidak tahu dan tiada ability; i wonder why la memandai-mandai? if nak tolong, stick to the things you know lah.

why la? why?

sebab menyampah, aku balik rumah, mandi, makan lemang, rendang dan laksam sekali lagi sambil mulut berborak dengan family :D

cheers

Cofergot

2010-11-16T10:34:00.003+08:00

cant be crapping too much i guess.

took an MC leave yesterday. Due to health condition.

I got Cofergot and Synflex as a friend to be with!!

I am getting old i guess OR

I need to be freaking active back! again. chop2..come on. lets freaking move my ass and workout :P

Aku pon nak marah jugak la

2010-11-14T14:33:00.002+08:00

pasal mak aku nak buka kedai, kene guna modal banyak.

da kira-kira, nak ala-ala share pulak. kalau boleh nak share dengan family.senang kira.

dah....pulak bapak gua suro aku masuk modal. aku senyum je. cakap duit tak banyak pon nak kasi modal.

tak pasal-pasal aku lagi kene marah: "dah nak duduk sendiri tu apahal? rumah selayang ada."

dah aku lagi.

terus potong mood nak lepak rumah berkeluarga. siot.

sukati la ayah.

tak pasal ak gak nak kena marah. Sangkut Paut!

Ini bukan posting biasa bah~

2010-11-12T11:08:00.002+08:00

pagi yang kurang riang. kalu mat salleh depa cakap dismal. mau tak.bangun nak subuh bukan dengan azan tapi bunyi hujan yang A! liat nak mampus. angkat baju cepat-cepat. subuh dengan pantas. terjun ala pandalela balik atas comfy bed aku. PADU! sedar jam tunjuk 0940. Masuk opis 0900. (-_-) ...... no worry

Bos aku bilang: enjoy the moment now when you dont have much workloads.

ya.bos aku memang uber cool. aku enjoy every moment of it. Oh! tapi idak lah sampai terkurang ajar masuk lepas jumaat.

berbalik pada cerita asal.

Ini sedikit update pasal aku. Tak. Aku bukan moviestar (di Sepanyol, salah satu Telco Utama! Movistar) mahupun kawan Lisa Surihani. Ini bukan untuk populasi umum. Mana tahu kawan-kawan Unibersiti circa 2004-2008 mahu kemaskini status aku.kan?tak. aku tak popular. memang aku suka menaip dan mengkhabarkan. attention seeker maybe?

Masih BUJANG. tapi sudah beberapa kali ditidakkan "so called cinta". Beberapa kali ditipu si cantik manis dan beberapa kali menipu sicantik manis *life is fair dont you agree?
Masih belum mendaftarkan diri dengan BEM walau sudah hampir 2 tahun bekerja sebagai engineer. Masih keliru dan kabur tentang gaya kerja seorang engineer.
Masih berpendapatan Sub-par orang minyak.Tapi tetap bersyukur walau mulut selalu mengeluh.
Masih merasakan beauty is in the eye of beholder itu ayat pick-up line yang simple dan canggih!
Masih bercita-cita untuk berkahwin dengan anak raja tapi masih juga kurang gemar royalties.
Sudah menggelarkan diri golongan kelas menengah atas dek kerna tinggal di rumah tingkat tinggi atas bukit. oh! Selayang sudah menjadi rumah bonda. hah!
Rumat tinggi atas bukit sangat sejuk dan cool! tak perlu naik lookout point sebab panorama dari rumah tinggi lebih canggih! hanya perlu berboxer atau au naturale (kalau teman serumah tiada) untuk menikmati indah malam kuala lumpur. DARI KATIL! *its nice to be ridden all night long with a beautiful view ladies
Sudah bertukar tempat kerja. kini di Segitiga Emas! Golden Triangle bebeyh! tapi masih belum mabuk :p masih belum.....yet hihihii.
Oh.Saya sudah jatuh cinta. jatuh bedebuk punya cinta. kepalas atas buku lali punya head over hills over you. Lumrah alam, gagal itu lebih selalu dari tak.hoho. Yang aku kejar, tengah kejar orang lain. hhihhihi. Main kejar-kejar, sampai aku bosan. Dah bosan, blah la :D

pendapatan saya kecil seperti semut merah. pendapatan anda seekor gajah

2010-11-11T17:06:00.002+08:00

siot la.ni la buat gua nak hati taman terasa ni.

gua tau la gaji gua tak besar. tak dapek nak layan tempat orang gaji besau macam Lu & The Gang (macam Band Indie sial :P).

tapi kalu dah tanak ajak gua, yang lu cakap jumpa kat ^&*( ape ke shoot?

gua kan gaji tak besar. gua jalan kaki kot.peluh-peluh ketiak.kaki pon pedih-pedih.

da sampai-sampai lu kata cancel lu malas nak jalan! tak ke gua rasa nak terajang minah senget sebelah gua?

da pulak, rajin gak lu pegi lepak ngan kawan kaya raya lu kat ^&*( gak.

ni rase nak cakap macam mat rempit kasta baru nak up ni. bak tang ar weyh~ aum2..breng2...pom! *sorry la Ex5 gua tak servis.gua gaji tak besar*

salleh punya laki

2010-11-11T12:28:00.002+08:00

gua bukan ape.

gua ade mat salleh sorang ni. tak ade pon aku kenal mane. rakan sekerja. ceh! gile Hot gua keje ngan MatSalleh.tapi nak Hot kalu, kene ade minah salleh ;)

Cerita balik la, gua ada kenal sorang mat salleh ni. rakan sekerja. agaknya hebat la kot resume mamat ni.idak, takde la pulak keje ngan company yang boleh tahan kelasnye~ tapi ada lah satu masalah. dah nama gua melayu la kot, gua sedikit sopan santunnya. agak-agak nak kurang ajar pon, sekadar jalan tonggek trunk gua je sikit-sikit. samada nak flirting mahupun nak menghina. ikut mood.

anyway, ini matSalleh gua rasa kurang ajar la sikit. dah nak keje jadi partner tapi kalu da buat kerja, tanak kasi aku masuk in the loop camna nak kerja? ok fine lah kasi can dah gua pon bukan pandai sangat. Tapi dah kalu tahap lu buat masuk kapal lu masuk depan driveway gua; lu kena la kasi tau ye idak? kang jiran tetangga bising-bising, dah tentu gua jugak yang kene.

bodoh punya mat salleh.

Dah lama sangat kot?

2010-11-10T16:16:00.003+08:00

pergh. gila lama gua menyepi.

nak menulis macam blogger prolifik tanah air. tapi menaip macam budak-budak main myspace lepas balik skolah.gile Padu!

hidup terumbang-ambing sial lately. tak.bukan gua layan syabu mahupun E! (pun Intended). jauh skali gua nak memantat anak orang. gua suci. hidup terumbang ambing sikit lately. jauh pada pencipta kot? damn! cakap pasal isu tuhan ni malu dengan sendiri.cit!

gua bukan ape, da bulan-bulan gaji pon.last2 tinggal sub 1k gak 1hb. cakap banyak tak guna, gua jilat balik ludah gua time zaman Uni rebelius dulu. Konon la tanak pakai kad syaitan kredit. hah! Body gua tergadai! auw~ gile keji Maybank. bukan.bukan. gila keji mesin kad syaitan kredit. seronok sial swiping! macam ass wiping seyh. tuhan.tolong jauhkan aku dari Kad Syatian Kredit.

owh. minggu lepas BankHarimauKuning send kat gua American Green Charge Cards. Limit penggunaan lebih 20k. Ko gile? geli alat genital gua dengar. Macam-macam dalam kepala ligat cari ruang nak main swiping ;p Tapi syukur kehadrat illahi, gua dapat pencerahan di bawah pengaruh minuman KafeBatuKerasGIlaBabi...gua hantar balik itu kad.POTONG! amik ko.

Lebur 20k..kuota berhutang. HAHA.celaka!ni mesti americanisation ala-ala illuminati tak pon freemason.Kad tu lepas potong bentuk tiga segi piramid kot. Freemason sial~ nasib baik gua da hapal cerita The Awakening (sumpah gua tipu). By the way, gua minum mocktail je doh at KafeBatuKerasGIlaBabi. Bibir ini masih virgin bukan ape. kang bau bau hancing setan, gadis tanak french-kiss dorang warak kot. Sisa kesan hancing setan haram terkene bibir time french-kiss. auh~~~

Oh.gua rasa, da banyak mengarut. dah lama tak mengarut ini macam. Rasa meleleh air mazi decelahan jari. akibat orgasm menaip dengan nikmat crapping.dang!

***

ps:oh! gua hati bergelora sekarang.tak.gua tak naik offshore.hati bergelora, masalah rumah tangga atas bukit langit tengah ada skandal macam-macam.kasihan teman serumah.dude, your problem is mine too? auh! rasa cam caring-caring gitew! haha.fuckit!

Mulia is overated

2010-10-29T12:19:00.002+08:00

gua tak rasa plak gua Mulia. Jauh skali Yang Maha Mulia mahupun Muliani a/l Muniandi.

tapi lu apahal nak cakap gua kurang mulia pada lu? memang la gua tak skolah agama. baca jawi pon sangkut-sangkut.

tapi, gua boleh cakap german 2patah, mandarin 2patah. lu ada?

Muliancau~ la lu dude.

is it me or you?

2010-10-09T11:54:00.002+08:00

it gets me thinking.

whats wrong with us human?

i have friends who chases other persons who treat him/her badly and couldnt care much bout him/her. Unless they need favors. LOTSA favorS!

But he/she disregard and treat the one that have been treating he/she nicely and caring for them so much that sometimes that someone rather sacrifice energy/time/money for he/she wellbeing (physically/mentally/emotionally)

wtf aite? you like people to treat you like shit? is that somekind of fetish you got? BDSM i suppose? gosh. i wonder and ponder. big question of WHY?

i am not a saint! i can forgive but not forget. but hell...forgive and forget and rekindle? i am confuse. its either you are a saint or you are and idiot or you just NEED someone to USE you and condescend you. weird. i know. but that is life. people thinks/works in a different way.

though we put rules and exception and limit. WE PEOPLE NEVER FOLLOW THEM. it is in our nature to go against everything. i suppose?

well...what if that people i blabber up there is me? you know like when kids want to ask things they are shy about the would say that : "my friend ask me to ask you that...bla...bla...bla..." its easier to put the blame on others and feel like you are the enlighten one and the one that care and solve problems. the real thing is, FACT is you are to the one who needs help.

sigh~ I NEED HELP i guess? or is it not bout me :P *grin* IM FREAKING BACK!

:D

2010-09-05T12:29:00.001+08:00

i stumbled upon it @postsecret.com

sincerity is better than a sonnet.

beauty is literally on the eyes of beholder.

hahah

those days

2010-08-17T16:33:00.002+08:00

puasa itu mencabar.

fasting can make you think back all those memories....coz apparently you are hungry and you daydream a lot! hah!

i miss my days in the first school that ever thought me how to live and how to embrace life. love. lust!

damn. miss those days.

thank you for lying on my face.

2010-08-07T11:00:00.002+08:00

dear readers,

today i want to be like an EMO prick writing a post in Blogspot.

FUCK.

all this time of curiosity and 2nd doubting are really true...I AM OFFICIALLY CHEATED AND LIED TO. I AM BETRAYED BY SOME ONE WHO SAYS ABOUT RIGHTEOUSNESS AND LOVE. I WAS A FOOL! I WAS BLINDED AND DECEIVED. ALL ALONG I WAS RIGHT. ITS NOT BECAUSE OF TIME OR CONSTRAINT. IT IS BECAUSE, THERE ARE OTHER PERSON.

PROMISE OF LOVE AND SAYANG ARE BREACHED AND BROKEN. MY TRUST ARE SPITTED AND THROWN AWAY LIKE IT MEANT NOTHING. ALL AND ALL WILL BE RATIONALIZED WITH : "I CANT CONTROL MYSELF AND YOU PUSH ME"

WHAT THE FUCK? AM I JUST AN OBJECT TO YOU?

RELATIONSHIP'S IMPORTANT FOUNDATION ARE TRUST, LOVE AND HONESTY. WHICH YOU DONT PUT DEAR TO YOUR HEART. YOU MEDDLE WITH IT LIKE AN ACCOUNTANT MEDDLING WITH MONEY. YES. I AM JUST A SUBJECT TO YOU THAT YOU CAN PLAY AROUND NO?

F U B !

2010-08-05T23:22:00.003+08:00

i am always in doubt.

it is hard for me to trust anyone anymore.

betrayal is like a bitch!

if jantan ade telur, take a knife and stab me hard la weyh.

i dont blame anyone for that. but fuck you for ruining the thing that i love the most.

fuck you BITCH!

To the one who make me say these words

2010-07-25T19:56:00.002+08:00

this is a confession of a lonesome lover

dear,

i am not lying when i say that i cant live without you.
i am not lying when i say that it's hard to live without you.
i am not lying when i say that i cant function well without you around.
i am not lying when i say that you are my soul's muse, my heart and my life.
i am not lying when i say that you are the orbit of my life.

and please dear, i beg you to believe me when i say those three magical words, it never meant differently or any lesser than what the words mean; that my heart, my soul and my body will always and never will stop to.......L O V E you, undivided.

Thank You.

p/s: "it is generous to LOVE others, but asking them to LOVE you back is selfish"; i understand dear.

Barang baik abang mau? 12am-ish (huhuh)

2010-06-30T22:14:00.004+08:00

aku penah pegi minum around area KJ.fuck aku lupe name Maple sombong tu.anyway, aku gi minum makan area KJ. Then, tengah layan milo ais dua tiga gelas alternate dengan teh o ais, datang budak kecik 2 orang. abang adik katanye. adik darjah dua.

"bro lu buat ape bro?

Jual barang bang. nak beli kompas solat?

gila.korang tak sekolah esok?

sekolah.nak cari pendapatan lebih.

duduk mana?

Danau Kota.

FUCK! really?? sapa anta sini?

Mak Ayah."

TIme aku lepak tu around 10-11pm-ish (gile sounds girlish sial gune pm-ish :P) dekat KJ! (baca: penekanan dekat KELANA JAYA)

budak tu dok Danau Kota.

what retard country i am in? come on parents. if u guys xde duit pon, takkan anta anak-anak beniaga tepi-tepi restoren mamak pukul nak dekat tengah malam? what the fuck are you guys thinking?? SAFETY? EDUCATION? CHILDREN'S WELL BEING? GOODNITE REST SO THEY CAN LEARN TOMORROW? COMFORTABLE HOME?

what the heck is going on? is it somekind of new movement we have here? Malaysian Independent Underage Kids Assoc (MIUKA)?? standard 2 = 8years old.danau kota ngan KJ tu jauh bai! aku pon boleh sesat (baca: tapi aku memang loser bab ingat jalan) nevertheless, school day tu...

*****

us, malaysian are not going for a quality life kah??

p/s: i rather my kid wake up at 5 am-ish (hihihi.gedik nak gune -ish) and bungkus kuih than straying at night selling stuff. dont u guys remember KIDNAPINGS and HUMAN TRADING is kinda Hot in malaysia..duh~ parents.be educated la weh.

taxi tng?

2010-06-20T10:34:00.003+08:00

do u know that taxi tariff has been increased??

do u know that once you got in the taxi, charge of RM3 is imposed??

do u know that taxi meter runs on meter (m) travel and second (s) travel??

do u know that taxi fare are based on per (m) travel and (s) travel.which ever come first??

SO WHY THE FUCK DID THE TAXI I TOOK LAST NIGHT DID NOT HAVE TnG/SMARTAG? FUCK YOU! QUEUING AT LORONG TUNAI (CASH LANE) FOR ABOUT 10MINUTES! THAT IS A LOT OF MY MONEY LA IDIOT!

****

i know that taxi have special rate at certain/all toll. so to whoever runs the company which made TnG/SMARTAG. cant u make one for taxi (with the special rate)??? idiot!

dey government, spending gazillions of rakyat's money to develop so called public transport. no brain ka dey?

dont blame me if i dont want to X next to the White dacing!

*****

PTUIH!

dream like a day dreamer

2010-06-14T21:30:00.003+08:00

i have a huge dream. a freaking huge dream, even too big for my hand.or head.which ever sounds better. i am a dreamer. a day dreamer. Dream is like a fire. it can grow big in one zap! and it can go out in one swoosh! dream is like a fire. it need fuel to burn and eventually spread out. my dream needs it fuel. it needs me to sacrifice something to be the fuel and burn wildly and make the dream from as small as a ponder to reality.

i am quitting my job. my secured designation. my comfort zone. my stabilize career. its for the better i guess. i would fool no one if i say that i am not scared, i am not worried. but i, i believe in something that others cant see. i believe that i can be THE play-maker as good as Pirlo (viva italia~).

i give the benefit of the doubt and take the challenge. heck. why would i want to be in a secured comfort cocoon?? I am not a Bumi. i am just me. and i am just a malaysian.

hail myself...hooorah!

Bitches where art thou

2010-03-14T11:49:00.001+08:00

Give Me SOME BITCHES....

hump hump hump...

:D

I will not worship what you worship

2010-01-30T23:38:00.002+08:00

what up dude and dudettes.
people know how i never wanted to discuss about religion here much.why? coz i am a sinner.but hey a sinner still have a say yeah??

anyway.i have a friend.a Chinese catholic friend from sarawak.i have a sabahan friend.catholic too~forgot his ethnicity.well he is malaysian for sure.yeah.you know where i am going here.my point.i would not care what words they want to use because i know it would not change my view.

this is the translated version of Al-Kafirun:

In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful.
Say: Oh you who turn away
I do not worship what you worship,
nor do you worship what I worship.
And I will not worship what you worship,
Nor will you worship what I worship.
Your way is yours, and my way is mine

Who am i to justify and judge? just let this beautiful poem from up above do the talking

***
cheers :D

whos that biatch?~~~ nanananan..nananna..

2010-01-30T20:31:00.000+08:00

i would not marry a biatch like you :D

Singapore ini cerita

2010-01-11T00:14:00.002+08:00

Singapore.quite good i guess. The public transports is freAking awesome. The train is superb and the bus is badass. The city is clean compare to KL. Somehow they have a lot more trees and shade. But even though i love hanging out in singapore. There are something that i think deserve to be "i was like......" by me. These are some of them

1) i dont get it. I know its and island and singapore can be washed away easily. But come on. Man wearing sluar banjir????what the fuck??? I was like......long pants or jeans match with skinny shirt or tees and couple with nice pair of shoes.but, do they have to fold their pants upward like they are crossing flash flood area???

2) its hotter here coz its an island. The sea breeze couldnt cool down the hot direct sunshine.
3) they have their own mat rempit. No wonder people say malay are the most outdated in singapore. With this kind of attitude, malay will b malay. Anywhere pon still macam budak kampung punye perangai. No offence to budak kampung yang sgt cool and chillax

4) ...... Thats it kot. I cant think of anything else. Huhuu

Cheers.
P/s: no souvenir. Budget vacation

First promise for 2010

2010-01-08T20:16:00.002+08:00

i promise myself to train for this upcoming running event...first thing first, find a good running shoes.not a training shoes :P

***dear fareez, please move your dear ass and get fit again.thanks***

2010 i want you

2009-12-12T13:39:00.002+08:00

TARGET FOR NEXT YEAR (In terms of spending money and not saving a penny):

Vibram Five Fingers- $80
Macbook Pro- $999
Dream Car- MYR129,000
A nice cuddly girlfriend- ($$$$$$$$$$$$$$$)
A one happy family- Price fucking less!!
Getting a divorce- $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

Now, lets work my ass off to gain what i wish.

SHout out to the Drivers

2009-12-11T16:32:00.002+08:00

lifestyle meletihkan = memandu tanpa henti pusing kuala lumpur.

i wonder how the taxi driver did it man~ salute to them.i mean for sure there are no taxi driver who get the luxury of driving a super comfortable car like, let say not a malaysian car.i mean, have you saw any Honda taxi? or other outsiders manufacturer (provided that car is not as old as half my age.that is not car.that is piece of crap). im quite sure your answer is: yes2 true2.

anyway.this shout out is to the taxi drivers and bus drivers in KL. YOU GUYS ROCK!!!!!

p/s: this shout out only valid for ethical and well manners public transport driver, to the suckers, u guys still sux with that old looking metal crap

cheerios bebeh!

0193133730

2009-12-05T16:14:00.002+08:00

achtung!

my phone number will be changed from 0133113730 to 0193133730 almost immediately.well maybe till tonight.why? a simple "moving on" in my life.

so cheers u sucka~

The truth always hurt the loser~

2009-11-26T18:09:00.003+08:00

it smells like someone had die in here.btw, better apologize if there are stupid or nonsense words or grammar error or sentences.been thiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiissssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss long since i wrote.HAH! 'this' above is quite long, like a?? hah!

anyway, all i want to write is; I WILL DEFINITELY QUIT MY JOB IF AND ONLY IF, I GOT A BETTER OFFER FROM A BETTER COMPANY OR, IF MY GRADE WILL STILL BE THE SAME OLD GRADE WHILE OTHERS RISES ABOVE ME!

no offence but I do think that I dont deserve to be condescend just because I am good looking and extremely gorgeous..... :P ok fuck it. I sounds like a bitch.haha.CORRECTION: ......just because I did not go to any interview to get a job :)

************

COUNTDOWN TO EXPLODE: MARCH2010 / OTHERs GOT THE 'Thing in 2months' whichever come first!

Malaysian's Black Man's Balls!

2009-11-06T14:10:00.002+08:00

Sejak 52 tahun lalu, negara ini hanya diperintah oleh Umno/BN/Perikatan, selain itu tiada parti lain yang berjaya menjadi pemerintah di negara yang majoriti penduduknya Melayu.
Adapun parti yang memerintah negeri-negeri seperti Kelantan (PAS- kini), Terengganu (PAS 1999-2004); Perak (Pakatan Rakyat,DAP-PAS-KeADILan sejak Mac 2008-Februari 2009); Selangor Mac 2008-kini), Kedah (Mac 2008-kini) dan Pulau Pinang (Mac 2008-kini), semuanya dianak-tirikan dari menerima bantuan pembangunan oleh kerajaan pusat.
Sejak itu juga, Umno/BN menggunakan ‘kesempatan’ dengan agensi kerajaan, media dan kuasa untuk mencengkam jiwa-jiwa orang melayu dan kaum-kaum lain bagi mengekalkan kuasa mereka.
Malah dengan akta-akta seperti Ordinan Darurat, Akta Rahsia Rasmi (OSA) dan Akta Keselamatan Dalam Negeri (ISA) Umno/BN berjaya ‘menutup’ mulut-mulut rakyat, dan setiap kali getir melanda periuk nasi Umno/BN, pastinya akta-akta ini digunakan bagi emnakut-nakutkan rakyat.
Dalam masa yang sama, bak kata Presiden PAS, Dato’ Seri Tuan Guru Abdul Hadi Awang dalam satu pertemuan dengan kakitangan Harakah pada 28 Oktober lalu di Pejabat Agung PAS Jalan Raja Laut, Umno/BN memperbodohkan rakyat dengan akhbar-akhbar mereka hingga rakyat menjadi ‘pak turut’.
Berita-berita yang dimuatkan dalam media milik Umno/BN hanya memaparkan pandangan sebelah pihak, selebihnya menghentam dan memfitnah pembangkang.
Sejarah pastinya tidak akan melupai akan Umno/BN lah yang mengurangkan kuasa Raja-raha Melayu, yang menderhaka kepada Sultan apabila di Terengganu, selepas pilihan raya umum 2008, Umno/BN tidak bersetuju dengan perkenan Sultan Terengganu melantik Dato’ Seri Ahmad Said selaku Menteri Besar menggantikan Dato’ Seri Idris Jusoh.
Mereka (Umno/BN) turun ke jalan-jalan raya bagi membantah tindakan Sultan hinggakan slogan ‘natang’ ditujukan kepada Sultan dan Istana.Penderhakaan ini tidakpun diambil tindakan oleh mana-mana pihak berkuasa hingga kini.
Sementara AJK PAS Pusat, Dato’ Kamaruddin Jaffar pada satu majlis di Gombak satu ketika lalu pernah mengingatkan bahawa rakyat tidak akan lupa, Umno telah melakukan pelbagai pengkhianatan terhadap orang-orang Melayu semenjak pemerintahan Tun Dr Mahathir Mohammad sehingga sekarang di bawah Dato’ Seri Najib Tun Abdul Razak.
Ujarnya pada zaman Dr Mahathir, beliau telah menghapuskan imuniti raja-raja Melayu. sedangkan Institusi Raja Melayu adalah simbol ketuanan orang Melayu. Seterusnya, pengkhianatan Umno yang kedua, dengan merosakkan sistem kehakiman negara yang juga dilakukan bermula pada zaman pemerintahan Dr Mahathir hinggalah hari ini apabila sistem kehakiman semakin dibobrokkan.
Bekas Perdana Menteri (Dr Mahathir) itu juga, telah campur tangan di dalam sistem kehakiman negara, yang menjadi simbol kedaulatan undang-undang negara dan krisis ini membawa kepada pemecatan Ketua Hakim Negara, Tun Salleh Abbas.
Kemudian, selepas pilihan raya umum 1999 yang menyaksikan Terengganu jatuh ke tangan PAS, kerajaan Umno menarik balik royalti minyak di sana.
Walhal, majoriti besar rakyat negeri Terengganu adalah daripada orang-orang Melayu dan Umno sanggup berbuat demikian demi membalas dendam akibat kalah teruk dalam pilihan raya berkenaan.
Pada zaman Dr Mahathir juga, Umno/BN memperkenalkan dasar Pembelajaran dan Pengajaran Sains dan Matematik dalam bahasa Inggeris (PPSMI) yang secara terang melanggar Perlembagaan Malaysia.Hak tunggal bahasa Melayu ini dicabuli dan pemimpin Umno/BN mempertahankannya.
Akibatnya, dasar yang digubal dan dilaksanakan itu akhirnya melemahkan pencapaian anak-anak Melayu dalam subjek Sains dan Matematik, selain keciciran Melayu di kawasan pedalaman.
Rakyat pastinya tidak akan lupa dengan tindakan Umno/BN menarik semula geran peruntukan untuk Sekolah Agama Rakyat (SAR) yang menjadi tempat belajar anak-anak orang Melayu.Umno/BN melaungkan bahawa SAR tempat melahirkan pengganas, dan ia adalah menurut kajian orang kanan Najib, Abdul Razak Baginda yang pernah dikaitkan dengan dakwaan pembunuhan wanita Mongolia, Altantuyaa Shaariibuu.
Berikut adalah antara senarai pengkhianatan Umno terhadap orang Melayu:
1. Melemahkan institusi raja-raja Melayu yang menjadi simbol ketuanan Melayu.
2. Melemahkan sistem kehakiman negara.
3. Menarik balik royalti rakyat petroleum rakyat Terengganu yang majoriti orang Melayu.
4. Memperkenalkan PPSMI; menghapuskan bahasa Melayu.
5. Menarik peruntukan geran kepada Sekolah Agama Rakyat, tempat belajar agama anak-anak Melayu.
6. Memperkenalkan meritrokrasi; mengurangkan peluang belajar anak-anak Melayu.
7. Memperkenalkan PTPTN dan mengurangkan biasiswa kepada anak-anak Melayu.
8. Persempadanan semula pilihan raya pada 2002; mengurangkan kawasan majoriti orang Melayu.
9. Menafikan hak royalti rakyat Kelantan yang majoriti Melayu.
10. Memperkenalkan Islam Hadhari yang mengelirukan orang Melayu.
11. Menyenaraiawamkan syarikat TH Plantation yang dahulunya dimiliki 100% oleh Tabung Haji dan dimiliki oleh orang Melayu. Tetapi sekarang orang bukan Melayu boleh memiliki saham TH Plantation.
12. Menggabungkan syarikat-syarikat konglomerat orang Melayu iaitu; Sime Darby, Guthrie dan Golden Hope, dan sekaligus mengurangkan peluang orang Melayu daripada tiga syarikat kepada satu syarikat sahaja.
13. Memetik kenyataan Mufti Perak, Dato’ Harussani Zakarian 250 ribu orang Melayu murtad. Semua ini adalah di bawah pemerintahan kerajaan Umno.
14. Mewujudkan Wilayah Iskandar yang menjadi zon bebas, maka orang-orang Singapura boleh masuk secara bebas ke sana.
15. Krisis Menteri Besar di Perlis dan Terengganu apabila Umno sendiri yang menentang keputusan Sultan di negeri berkenaan.
16. Membubarkan Kementerian Pembangunan Usahawan yang menjadi sumber bantuan usahawan-usahawan Melayu.
17. Memperkenalkan liberalisasi ekonomi, maka sekaligus menghapuskan Dasar Ekonomi Baru yang tujuannya membantu ekonomi orang-orang Melayu Bumiputra.
18. Mendedahkan pelaburan wang Tabung Haji satu ketika lalu dalam dengan syarikat Judi Pan Sweep, seperti yang didedahkan dalam buku Exco Kerajaan Kelantan, Dato’ Paduka Husam Musa.
19. Enggan membayar royalti minyak kepada kerajaan Kelantan sejak tahun 2004.
20. Mengkhianati amanah rakyat dengan merampas kerajaan negeri Perak dari tangan Pakatan Rakyat dengan cara yang tidak bermoral pada Februari 2009.
Selain itu, Kerajaan Umno/BN juga mengadakan hubungan erat dengan Israel sebuah negara Yahudi yang ganas walaupun dasar negara tidak mengiktiaf negara yahudi itu.Talam dua muka yang mengkhianati sokongan bangsa sendiri yang menentang keganasan Zionis terhadap rakyat Palestin.
Umno/BN juga hanya memberi kontrak yang diperuntukkan untuk bumiputera kepada kroni iaitu Umnoputra yang rapat dengan pemimpin pemerintah yang kemudianya menjual projek kepada tauke tauke kaya dengan keuntungan berjuta ringgit tanpa membuat sebarang kerja.
Sementara tauke ini akan membuat projek berkenaan dengan baki modal yang kurang dari yang diperuntukkan. Maka jadilah lebuhraya retak, bangunan bocor, projek-projek tidak siap seperti PKFZ dab landasan berkembar Ipoh Rawang yang rugi sekitar RM1.14 billion, masjid runtuh, jambatan runtuh dan stadium di Terengganu yang runtuh.

aku baca.aku pahamkan.aku senyum.yang aku setuju: sistem kehakiman dibobrok dan diperbodohkan politikus.owh.kegemaran zainur! :P yang lain aku rasa Crap.why in the hell our justice system is so freaking crap?i wonder why arent we using Jury sytem instead of one judge or is it 3judge for high profile case?still i think judiciary is much crapper now-a-day!wheres the justice?in my ass i would guess.i shit a lot when i eat a lot.i shit less when i eat less.fair kan?

as quoted by harith iskandar greatest sayings:"LIFE IS LIKE A BLACK MAN'S BALLS.ITS NOT RIGHT, ITS NOT FAIR"

day after day-plagiarize from deyna

2009-11-03T23:59:00.001+08:00

aku suka cara Deyna mengexpresikan kemalasan diri dengan gaya pertanyaan secara monolog. Nak tiru!

Bile aku nak update blog aku ni?

CRAP,never smell better these days

2009-10-03T16:59:00.002+08:00

"what would I do if someone smack ME in the head and kick ME in the ass at the same time??" -ordinarysoreassengineer

those quote meant a lot to me.been using it for some times to solve minor bump.seriously.am not lying.you know some people always ask themselves What would Jesus Do? or What would *Somebody-Somebody which usually is their idol* dowhy?

Simply because they wanted to feel comfortable and crapping sure that their decision is right.I mean, if they do shit, they want to make sure that their *Somebody-Somebody which usually is their idol* already did that shit in the same shitty shituation they are in.got it?some shrink would probably says that its a good way for people to see things clearly when they try to put their "thinking like their idol-cap" on.they would see some things differently as they try to imitate the *Somebody-Somebody which usually is their idol* way of looking at shitty shituation.from different angle,different views,different perspective and what not, in such a way they convince their self that the decision they made is the right one.

boohoo.scratch that all up.where's the self confidence in that?different angle,perspective and all those crap? i dump it all in my clogging toilet and let it rot with the Poop i had last nite.

I RATHER ASK MYSELF.MY OWN FUCKING BRAIN.WHAT WILL I DO.simply because why the hell i wanted to be/do like what other did?how lame to plagiarize their solution.uhux!

anyway...to those who met me almost 2months ago, lets have a drink(s) lets chill and reminiscence our stupidity back then.

to freestylers: Zukno (Senior Associate Engineer) raised a motion to BBQ-ing our Manhood balls.nah~ kidding.die ajak lepak ramai-ramai.BBQ tepi pantai or picnic air terjun

***cheers***

p/s:good luck to Iddin on ur offshore trip.tak sempat seyh nak pillow talk.

pp/s:mereka yang berumur bawah 21 tahun layak meng-pow aku duit raya.sila datang kerumah

ppp/s:AZMAN AZIZ KENE CERAMAH KRISTIANITI SELAMA 1-2JAM.YOU GO BOY!!! :P

Raya kurang 4-5hari lagi

2009-09-16T22:45:00.000+08:00

selamat hari raya maaf zahir dan batin

halal makan dan minum.ampun kan salah silap yang terzahir mahupun batil.

CHEERS~

bye2 now

2009-08-19T10:56:00.000+08:00

i am sorry for what i have done.

selamat berpuasa dan raya

bye2 now...

2009-08-13T07:41:00.003+08:00

somewhere in Facebook there are pictures of me in towel....stupid AZMAN...

in my defence..i wore a short inside..and would you think i would be naked?

entree~

2009-08-01T21:02:00.003+08:00

i dont love animal so much.but certain someone did mellow my soul.fuck!even my officemate said to me once: "You've change..u are no longer the person we knew.you came here for ur internship, u rock like shit, rough n all...you go back to UTP, you come back again as a mellow guy?? what happen dude??"

all i can answer: "Love iddin...love...." with a smile and grin.heh!

anyway...my cat got a cirit birit yang sangat kronik.why? a less smart and a bit innocent yet ignorant kid feed her MUFFIN! yup the sweet cute cupcake!oh deng! and i just got to know that by doing some investigation.poor my little honey.to top it off, the meds are all shitties.bergelumang dengan tahi!effing explode just now.then wash the cage and all and got to calm down a bit.hence writing this! :P

****

this shout out goes to my new reader that didnt understand a wee bit of my blog.sorry for the stupid and how should i say....."wierdo" words and sentences i wrote here.sorry that u cant understand dear.got to read between the line yeah! so to FIZA (Iddin's -something-honestly i dont know the status.coz they are like this one cool dude and one hot chick but they say they are just friend.so be it!) welcome to the club yeah? geek up ur self and make ur self wierdo coz the world are too full with normal people.lets be different!

****

PLEASE PEOPLE GIVE ME SOME LIFE....i FEEL SOUL-LESS here in ARUPAS.

lifestyle shitties junkies

2009-08-01T11:02:00.002+08:00

in the road to active and healthy life-style, i bought a pair of Adidas JawsPaw (for climbing and activities that need for ur feet to be in swampy/water) and a Wilson Nrage Squash racket.oh shit.how crappy bitch i can get.laming my ass tulis ape yang aku beli..naseb bek tak letak gambar.hahaha..

before i become a bitch and bitching my butt in someone elses ass business, let me clear the air.HUUUUUU~~~~~

Anyone nak men squash? aku da up satu level da.

pesanan peribadi to Fadhil Hafiz: ade BRA jom ar do~

****

aside from this crazy fun and back ache i got from those two things i bought, my life is pretty much damn boring...so cheers babes...and dudes~

Sabah ba~

2009-07-18T19:55:00.002+08:00

i am in sabah.yeah? woot~ sabah bah~

sumandak di sini sungguh panas sepanas cuaca petang kota kinabalu yang berhadapan dengan laut.yang nampak pulau-pulau itu!taman negara marin tuanku abdul rahman.ya! yang itu.oh.sumandak disini juga sepanas dapur bakaran yang membakar sotong-sotong, udang-udang dan ikan yang besar ba~ meleleh air liur ini melihat sumandak disini sama meleleh air liur ini menonton acara membakar seafood yang besar dan murah itu.sungguh!

anyway, aku sudah menjadi beach boy beberapa minit, dan sudah snorkel terumbu dan ikan cantik.

p/s:aku sudah sentuh itu ikan Nemo ba~ coral yang beralun itu juga! jangan repot pihak berkuasa yah!

Kucing Sangat COMEL

2009-07-11T11:23:00.002+08:00

Damn.what an inspiring day for me.

last night we adopt a mix gender kitten from somebody in cheras.a cute fragile 1month+ kitten.so small yet so active.a SHE nevertheless!named Kat! for Katijah.hehe.i was so happy to have her.cute and very discipline. :P didnt occur to me that i can love a cat like this.i had always known to hate cat.hahaha.evil me aite?

anyway, we spoil her with love last nite and of coz foods.today, i was about to leave to Selayang,then..

***

****

what the FUCK??? TEH!!!!!!! my previous cute lil kitty persian fluffy kitten that Nazrin "manage" to lose for nearly 2weeks came back.Not actually came back though.i saw HER in my neighbours house.jiran tak jiran, i know my cat and that is definitely TEH.ran and get her!huargh!what the hell.she is so skinny compared to her sister that i saw last nite.damn neighbour!

To cut the story short, I am in Selayang, and now Nazrin is handling her, get a cage at Mak Uji's, Send TEH to be groomed, vaccined, dewormed and tag with OUR name.maybe i wanted to take that cat for registration too.sigh~whatabout KAT? she will be loved equally :P heck she plays along with TEH quite well.

***

esok-esok pulak aku update.sekarang kurang membaca = tiada idea nak menulis = sangat malas = penulisan ilmiah dari segi sosial tiada= bacalah BELOG aku yang macam diari budak perempuan 10tahun. HEE~

5th JULY 2009

2009-07-05T14:07:00.002+08:00

it feels like a decade since i last update.wth.

what i feel this days? i feel gloated with myself. feels ashamed wit myself. i ponder for a while.

what have i done lately? what have i done in the past 10 years?what am i?a slave?a machine?i would wonder deep in my head.the purpose of my existence.sigh~ the only thing that come to my head are:

i am a sinner
i am a liar
i am a hideous beast
i was,am&will be a guy that doesnt have the privilege to reminiscent

oh dear god.tuhanku.thank you for giving me somebody to love and to be love.

Me,Myself and MYLOVE

2009-05-24T18:58:00.002+08:00

i have been doing some serious stupid stuff these few days.uhu!it feels like i ve been on time machine and travel back to the days i was a BOLD fucking harsh gorgonite with a super ugly face and a humongous body.Eat child too!especially at night.what the hell?fucking paedo monster??

blergh!

its the time of the month again.when LOVE is in the air.freaking loser!for some reason, deep in my brain, some sort of Beauty & The Beast Soundtrack been looping on and on.and the cartoon like cinema film too~rolling non stop.am i crazy???

quote of the day: "Only the BRAVE deserves a FAIR" (Read:Lady.a fair beautiful Lady.or a guy, if the BRAVE is a woman.or a guy or woman if the brave is a Gay or Lesbian)

anyway, i am the BRAVE..so who wanted to be the FAIR? *winking!*

to cut things short, i present to you another quote i adore: "FUCK! I LOVE YOU"

Poet 101

2009-05-24T14:03:00.001+08:00

"Think where man's glory most begins and ends, And say MY glory was I had such friends"
-William Butler YEATS

i may add, i had such a superbly awesome friends.
you guys fucking rock my life.rock on!

Up dan Date

2009-05-17T11:46:00.000+08:00

Update diperlukan

UP (baca:naik)

DATE (baca:tarikh)

owh..esok aku naik setahun tua.

sekian~

Last WEEK Blast!

2009-04-22T20:24:00.003+08:00

its been awhile i wanted to write something.but heck!the usual excuse; too lazy to do so.

anyway if i were to update this blog last week; i would write on how wonderful my week is when it started with BOISET in Pasir Gudang and ended with Gunung Nuang, Ulu Langat.Sounds Fun eh? yup it is fun.

being suited up like some spacemen and jumping in the water trying to float does sounds fun aint it? well. been there done that.if some jerk come to me and boast around on how they once played in the so called HUET machine, i would gladly answer; "Fuck Off Mate.it does not scare me a bit yeah? its just a training." but if there is some folks coming to me and told me how he almost die surviving in the middle of nowhere out there in open sea; i would bow down and salute that man for now i know how hard that was.

been drowned in a pool on a barge floating on seawater sounds not that interesting? how about climbing 1.4++ KM tall mountain which holds the record of 'Ramai Orang Sesat di Situ'

yup-yup it sounds more thrill and brilliantly superb! well, went up to that mountain peak for some fun and charity.PICKING UP GARBAGE! yeah.its a hell lot of garbage. Stupid Malaysian, throwing rubbish and stuff in that beautiful mountain forest.heck, i even found a LAN cable.wth?? how ridiculous can we be Sucker? its tiring the mountain climbing.REALLY tiring. join a few IRONMAN/WOMEN group doing that charity.though its exhausting, but its WORTH every drops of my manly sweat.

credit to Nazrin, Julie (MissJewelz), AJ (50+ Iron Man), Kam, Rashid, Azma, Fini/Tini (Never get it right :P)

i will update some photo on request.

***

p/s: in between the BOISET and the Mountain, had a Karoeke session with the one and only; Poji (Taiko TLG) feat Azman, Zainur, Maria and as always my tag along buddy: Nazrin.

thank you guys.

cheers~

Pesanan Penaja- 206

2009-04-12T12:50:00.002+08:00

"Andai anda bermulut lancau dan kasar, pastikan hati anda tidak mellow dan flowery. Kelak anda akan terasa seperti in denial dan BODOH!"

Ironik kan?

"I love the old you, when you swear and curse; tell people the truth about them boldly and harshly.it is so sexy!"

Sigh~

"Ksatria Kuda juga ada titik kelemahan yang melembutkannya.titik itu di situ dan sini"

(tangan menunjuk ke arah dada atas kiri dan kantungan di celahan kangkang)

"Jangan menjadi gula (baca: sweets) dan mengharap aku tidak manis (baca:sweet)"

haha

***

Off to Pasir Gudang.untuk dilemaskan dan digolekkan sambil hidung dan mulut tertelan air.ayuh!

Post Tampal 12354

2009-04-09T17:32:00.001+08:00

ini barisan terbaru kabinet.macam gelak-gelak suku kata aku tengok.tapi aku jurutera je.najib menteri.up to him

PERDANA MENTERI

Datuk Seri Najib Razak

TIMBALAN PERDANA MENTERI

Tan Sri Muhyiddin Yassin

MENTERI DI JABATAN PERDANA MENTERI

1. Tan Sri Dr Koh Tsu Koon (Hal Ehwal Perpaduan & Pengurusan Prestasi)

2. Datuk Seri Mohamed Nazri Abdul Aziz (Hal Ehwal Perundangan dan Parlimen)

3. Tan Sri Nor Mohamed Yakcop (Unit Perancang Ekonomi)

4. Mej-Jen (B) Datuk Jamil Khir Baharom (Hal Ehwal Agama Islam)

Timbalan-timbalan Menteri:

1. Datuk Liew Vui Keong

2. Datuk Dr Mashitah Ibrahim

3. Datuk S.K. Devamany

4. Ahmad Maslan

5. T.Murugiah

MENTERI KEWANGAN:

Datuk Seri Najib Razak

MENTERI KEWANGAN II:

DATUK AHMAD HUSNI MOHAMAD HANADZLAH

Timbalan:

1. Datuk Chor Chee Heung

2. Datuk Dr Awang Adek Hussin

MENTERI PELAJARAN:

Tan Sri Muhyiddin Yassin

Timbalan:

1. Datuk Dr Wee Ka Siong

2. Dr Mohd Puad Zarkashi

MENTERI PENGANGKUTAN:

Datuk Ong Tee Keat

Timbalan:

1. Datuk Abdul Rahim Bakri

2. Datuk Robert Lau Hoi Chew

MENTERI PERUSAHAAN, PERLADANGAN DAN KOMODITI:

Tan Sri Bernard Dompok

Timbalan:

1. Datuk Hamzah Zainudin

MENTERI DALAM NEGERI:

Datuk Seri Hishammuddin Hussein

Timbalan:

1. Datuk Wira Abu Seman Yusop

2. Jelaing anak Mersat

MENTERI PENERANGAN, KOMUNIKASI, KESENIAN DAN KEBUDAYAAN:

Datuk Seri Utama Dr Rais Yatim

Timbalan:

1. Datuk Joseph Salang Gandum

2. Senator Heng Seai Kie

MENTERI TENAGA, TEKNOLOGI HIJAU DAN AIR:

Datuk Peter Chin Fah Kui

Timbalan:

Noriah Kasnon

MENTERI KEMAJUAN LUAR BANDAR DAN WILAYAH:

Datuk Seri Shafie Apdal

Timbalan:

1. Datuk Hassan Malek

2. Datuk Joseph Entulu anak Belaun

MENTERI PENGAJIAN TINGGI:

Datuk Seri Mohd Khaled Nordin

Timbalan:

1. Datuk Dr Hou Kok Chung

2. Datuk Saifuddin Abdullah

MENTERI PERDAGANGAN ANTARABANGSA DAN INDUSTRI:

Datuk Mustapa Mohamed

Timbalan:

1. Datuk Mukhriz Mahathir

2. Datuk Jacob Dungau Sagan

MENTERI SAINS, TEKNOLOGI DAN INNOVASI:

Datuk Dr Maximus Ongkili

Timbalan:

Fadillah Yusof

MENTERI SUMBER ASLI DAN ALAM SEKITAR:

Datuk Douglas Uggah Embas

Timbalan:

Tan Sri Joseph Kurup

MENTERI PELANCONGAN:

Datuk Ng Yen Yen

Timbalan:

Datuk Seri Sulaiman Abdul Rahman Abdul Taib

MENTERI PERTANIAN DAN INDUSTRI ASAS TANI:

Datuk Noh Omar

Timbalan:

1. Datuk Johari Baharum

2. Datuk Rohani Abdul Karim

MENTERI PERTAHANAN:

Datuk Seri Dr Ahmad Zahid Hamidi

Timbalan:

Datuk Dr Abdul Latiff Ahmad

MENTERI KERJA RAYA:

Datuk Shaziman Abu Mansor

Timbalan:

Datuk Yong Khoon Seng

MENTERI KESIHATAN:

Datuk Liow Tiong Lai

Timbalan:

Datuk Rosnah Rashid Shirlin

MENTERI BELIA DAN SUKAN:

Datuk Ahmad Shabery Cheek

Timbalan:

1. Datuk Razali Ibrahim

2. Wee Jeck Seng

MENTERI SUMBER MANUSIA:

Datuk Dr S.Subramaniam

Timbalan:

Datuk Maznah Mazlan

MENTERI PERDAGANGAN DALAM NEGERI DAN HAL EHWAL PENGGUNA:

Datuk Ismail Sabri Yaakob

Timbalan:

Datuk Tan Lian Hoe

MENTERI PERUMAHAN DAN KERAJAAN TEMPATAN:

Datuk Kong Cho Ha

Timbalan:

Datuk Lajim Ukin

MENTERI PEMBANGUNAN WANITA, KELUARGA DAN MASYARAKAT:

Datuk Seri Sharizat Jalil

Timbalan:

Datin Paduka Chew Mei Fun

MENTERI LUAR:

Datuk Anifah Aman

Timbalan:

1. A.Kohilan Pillay

2. Datuk Lee Chee Leong

MENTERI WILAYAH PERSEKUTUAN:

Datuk Raja Nong Chik Raja Zainal Abidin

Timbalan:

Datuk M.Saravanan

*Sumber dari Bernama

roller coaster

2009-04-05T14:49:00.000+08:00

aku rasa hidup aku interesting.sebab aku sekarang naik roller coaster emosi yang sangat best!pergh~ muntah-muntah bila turun.seronok menjerit

Sunday 1256pm

2009-04-05T12:48:00.003+08:00

can never get enough of you.why do you do this to me?

aduh........sakit sial.macam kene spank dengan pengikis sisik ikan.

fuh~

somebody please set me straight?

Babi dan habitatnya

2009-04-03T21:12:00.002+08:00

babi hutan: ko buat ape malam jumaat ni? esok tak keje.xkan tak gi joli

babi kandang: aku dalam kandang.makan berak tidur, main lumpur campur taik aku sendiri

babi hutan: wow.Loser-nya kamu B (baca:nama manja) jom la lepak dalam ladang sawit belakang.chill kot~

babi kandang: babi la ko, nak kerek.aku dalam kandang kot.nak kuar celah mana?

babi hutan:you are born to be a loser you pig! ok lah B, aku nak jalan-jalan cari truffles di sebalik pokok sawit.ciao~

babi kandang:pukimak la lu nak ciao~ ko ingat ko orang italy? ko duduk felda ***** je pon, fucking posers!

*creeet....babi kandang terberak cair.*

babi kandang:yeah~ makin banyak selut nak main *hati gembira sambil jalan melompat-lompat dengan empat kaki pendek dalam selut+makanan+tahi nya*

****

-nota kaki-

mari cari truffles.Sedap kan?

Sekian.

Oh! babi hutan kirim salam untuk pembaca :P

nak?? tak nak~

2009-04-03T20:49:00.003+08:00

a: aku nak

b:btol?

a: iye aku nak

b:ok.seronoknye *senyum gembira*

a:ape ade?

b:ape ko nak?

a:macam-macam

b:ok

___________

* *

** **

*** ***

**** ****
***** *****

****** ****** <----jam pasir ini aku buat sendiri.sebab bosan

***** *****

**** ****

*** ***

** **

*_____-____*

a:aku tak nak :P

a(ii): aku tak nak gak :)

b:oh.............*sugul*

EDITED:

babi tak kuar jam pasir aku.sial~

aku kurang bertenaga

2009-04-03T20:01:00.002+08:00

aku letih.otak.badan.genitelia.semua letih.

orang kata aku manja.tak tahan.lembik.mengada.

aku angkat tangan sambil jari tengah sahaja terpacul ke udara.aku senyum lembut.

aku letih otak sebab sehari-harian aku kerja yang memang letihkan otak.

aku letih otak sebab kadang-kadang perangai orang tak boleh jangka.bila aku terkena.aku jadi letih otak.emosi aku macam roller coaster.

aku letih otak bila aku di tekan untuk pulang ke rumah dan disyakwasangka tentang jumlah kerja yang aku ada.

aku letih otak sebab aku ada migraine.bila aku letih otak yang amat sangat.aku jadi tambah letih bila migraine

aku letih badan sebab aku bangun 6.00 a.m. tiap-tiap pagi dan pandu kereta mengharungi kesesakan lalu lintas selama sejam atau lebih.hari-hari tertentu aku untung.kesesakan tiada.syukur.

aku letih sebab lepas kerja meletihkan otak, aku kene pandu pulang kereta aku dan mengharungi kesesakan lalu lintas yang sama tapi lebih panas dan terik dan meletihkan.perjalanan balik mengambil masa lebih lama.

aku letih badan bila pulang ke rumah sewa kawan sepejabat aku.sebab otak aku letih kene marah dan ditekan dan disyakwasangka dan dipersoal

aku letih genitelia sebab ............oh silap.genitelia aku tidak mampu dan tidak larat untuk bangkit gagah dan bangga bak ayam jantan berkokok pagi.sebab aku terlampau letih otak dan badan.

ya.aku letih.

sila jangan tambah keletihan ini.tolong.sayangi aku barang sekupang dua.jangan buat perangai palat dengan aku.jangan buat palat depan aku.aku tak dibenarkan terajang kamu.itu sukar kamu tau? oh.tampak seperti aku merayu pula.Ya! aku merayu kerana aku terlampau letih untuk bertikaman dan mendabik.tolong yah? jangan buat palat?

***

-nota kaki-

1) Esok di cineleisure damansara ada diadakan acara memukul orang lain dengan bantal.berminat? pergi lah. 4pm yah!

2) Aku memang letih.exhausted.berikan aku air tenaga?

3) Maaf andai aku tidur awal dan kurang melayan.bukan malas.bukan berkecil hati.bukan jauh hati dengan kamu-kamu.aku cuma letih

Sekian!Wassalamu

JANGAN~!

2009-04-03T16:46:00.001+08:00

aku jumpa kat saharil conteng.

aku baca, aku gelak.hilarious

heh! betul jugak.

peringatan kepada anda: jangan jilat "apam" saya.nanti tak ada orang beli.hahahahahha

hahaha

****
notakaki:

no hard feeling yeah?

this post is sucks.its all about shit i been through.so scoot if you expect something

2009-03-29T11:43:00.003+08:00

what a hectic week.sorry to those who text me or call me.your text or call didnt get through.my phone is off for the whole week.sad story really.anyway, this week has been pretty off the hook.i mean the 'how busy i am' hook.im so freaking busy.i only sleep at my house for 2days.that, going to piss my mum off.owh yeah, it did, but it a good way because she did not tell me she wants me home, instead she told my brother how i didnt come home for how many days :) well, i got a cool mom.

been trashed by the report.need to do this and that.but hey, i only got the minor part.imagine that i do the report alone.and alone as in my head is put on the chopboard if there are problems with that shit.sigh~ but hey, live life to the fullest yeah?

spending a lot of time in Bangi this week.Seksyen12 to be precise.well, had a load of fun too i might add.though a lot of emotional thingie also going on.sigh~besides that, i am being the working engineer i am.night time is like the time to have fun with Yin (read:Nazrin) & Man (read:same old azman).dinner and hang out whenever i can.forgot when.but definitely this week i have been spending a lot (time&money) with them.

The Saturday night are blessed with Wakoweko farewell karaoke party at Alamanda.what a nice 2hours 30minutes session.everyone did a great job in singing.kudos to Pell for bringing us back to the One Up There when we are so far away from him (read:inside joke).Saturday give me some work load and extremely small time to sleep since last night.cant blame no one.since the karaoke thingie, been slapped with some problem and the solution and was way~ to hard and it consist of serious sulking, and a lot of talking about shits and stuff.thus resulting in a beauty Saturday that starts with breakfast with yin,man & the lime light centre stage Wakoweko! later head to the fucking office to do some work and manage to force Yin to accompany.

Around 3p.m. head to MidVal where i mingle with new folks: Ben,Cham,Otai,Izul,Haziberi,Ak and same old Man (sigh).lunch and tengok-tengok sekitar kamera thingie there.

***

Watched THE KNOWING disebabkan itu yang Cham beli

***

beberapa jam selepas.....

***

Fuck!tak best gile ending cerita.saya kasarkan sebagai puki!maaf kerana bahasa keras.cerita yang menarik diberi pengakhiran yang betul-betul absurd and ridiculous.make me say to my heart; this is the fucking reason i hate going to cinema.this is the fucking reason i hate going to cinema.repeat it 3times.yeah i did!

drive back home....

***

Yin text me: "kitorang dok gelap-gelap kat midval smbil amik gambar.satgi nak tgk cerita Talentime"

fuck it again.why in the hell when its with me just now we watch stupid Nicolas cage movie and when I'm at home you guys watch yasmin movie which i am aiming to watch in cinema??why in the hell? fuck it lah.frankly speaking, start to regret driving home early.seriously.but i did because i felt like.............felt like something.....

Yin text me later:"talentime is so nice it touch my heart"

that's it.no mood anymore.TIDUR! (my brother support earth hour and switch off all the lights.make me easier to sleep)

**************************

nota kaki:

1)a freestyler is going to be engaged next year

2)most freestyler secured a job and there is some gossip about someone buying a Honda City (fucking new)

3)there are people who knew me because of the stupid dance i did.

4)lu pahal sassy nak men amik gambar HB aku? what the?

5)sebarang invitation ke wayang akan dibalas dengan: "pergi berjunub"

6)nicolas cage sucks big time

Sialan!

2009-03-20T20:04:00.002+08:00

tahap imunasi aku berkurang.

sialan doctor yang mahu mengutip wang keuntungan.

aku dipaksa melakukan X-ray dua kali dalam masa kurang seminggu.

aduh!demam aku dibuatnya.oh! dua kali sampel darah diambil.aku kurang berkenan.

kenapa?kebodohan staf HR ditempat aku baru bekerja mungkin.MUNGKIN!

yang tidak mengerti Geotechnical Engineer yang bekerja dalam syarikat pembekal perkhidmatan untuk syarikat-syarikat petroleum lain sudah semestinya perlu ke tengah laut (baca:offshore)

kerana kebodohan (mungkin!) mereka, aku diseksa dengan pancaran sinar-X yang radioaktif dua kali!sial!sakit la bodoh!ugutan yang payroll bulan ini tidak dapat dikeluarkan jika aku lambatkan tarikh medical check-up membuatkan aku mual!bluergh!sialan kamu manusia.kamu mengugut aku yang sudah memang dihimpit!

aku tiada tenaga mahu menulis dan berfikir.Mari doakan supaya aku sembuh (yang bukan seagama dengan aku dan masih mahu berdoa, doa kepada tuhan kamu, yah? sekurang-kurangnya kamu percaya dengan tuhan!biarpun berbeda)

***

aduh....sesiapa yang membuat panggilan ke telefon aku akan dijawab dengan suara hampir menghairahkan.

sekian!

Kenapa yah? Episod 1

2009-03-18T20:09:00.003+08:00

aku sudah masuk kerja.sebagai jurutera.itu tidak penting.cerita kaki sahaja.cerita pokok; aku jadi jurutera,kerja dalam department kejuruteraan.sekeliling pejabat aku dikelilingi dengan pejabat-pejabat lain yang kesemuanya berkongsi satu tandas yang mempunyai 3 tempat membuang air.baiklah, ingat! jurutera,kongsi,tandas! 3 fakta penting.

Kupasan:

Jurutera/Kejuruteraan/pejabat kejuruteraan: kebanyakan pekerja di pejabat ini memang tidak dinafikan berkelayakan tinggi dan aku yakin paling kurang diploma dalam mana-mana bidang yang berkaitan.secara logiknya mereka-mereka berpendidikan peringkat ketiga (tertiary education).mereka bukan dari kaum-kaum orang asli mahupun pedalaman baik melayu,cina,india dan pendatang asing (caucasian).Anggaran dibuat;bahawasanya mereka-mereka ini mempunyai akal yang sihat dan kesedaran sivik yang tinggi memandangkan pekerjaan mereka menunjukkan kebolehan untuk wujudnya mobiliti sosial dan juga mengukuhkan lagi teori yang mereka-mereka adalah orang bertamadun

Kongsi: dalam kata lain bermaksud; menggunakan sesuatu objek atau perkhidmatan secara bersama tanpa ada had atau limitasi terhadap setiap ahli-ahli yang mengongsi.mengikut adab dan tatasusila (rujuk Rukun Negara: Kesopanan & Kesusilaan) objek mahupun perkhidmatan yang dikongsi perlulah dijaga dengan baik dan digunakan dengan baik supaya ahli-ahli kongsi yang lain dapat menggunakan objek atau perkhidmatan berkenaan diwaktu lain dengan keadaan yang baik dan masih lagi teratur.Namun akta sosial tidak bertulis diatas hanya termaktub dan terlaksana andai ahli-ahli adalah cukup akal dan bertamadun.

tandas: bilik atau ruang yang dilengkapi dengan fasiliti untuk digunakan untuk membuang air besar, air kecil, menambah alat solek, membasuh tangan/muka, berhias dan berkias.

***

Fakta Hari Ini: apa pasal tandas ofis aku kotor macam ****?? dah la lantai basah bagai macam la ada mandi wajib, bau tu memang merengsakan.macam puki! (semestinya puki busuk!).baik, tandas memang norma busuk, tapi kalau da mangkuk tandas kesan kuning-kuning kering air kencing.tak memberahikan kamu tahu!keterbantutan nyah tinja mungkin berlaku dengan keadaan yang fucking dirty! bluergh! tandas sekolah kebangsaan boleh la nak kotor bagai, but this toilet is used by hairy dick man regardless of circumsize or not that most are at executive level which already/maybe/will have children,for fuck sake.not asking you to be a hygienic freak, but at least, have a better standard of hygienic.

***

baiklah encik-encik budiman, mari menuju kearah tandas bersih April2009.

-nota kaki-

wanita tidak diendahkan; tandas berbeza.tapi kamu juga ambil pengajaran.tandas perlu bersih
pembersih juga tidak disalahkan; aku saksikan kerajinan mereka membersih

***

p/s: aku sakit tekak

pp/s: aku sakit hati

ppp/s: aku tunggu berduit

pppp/s: aku rasa aku jatuh cinta dengan pengangguran!

THE comment.not just a comment

2009-03-17T20:16:00.003+08:00

fellow friends, i do believe that this is the most awesome,best and PADU comment i have ever got in my post.thanks to ameera shafie for her CEMERLANG comment on the issue.it really shows that you read and know how to write.thank god there are no fucking extremist giving fuck up comment.because, if you dont know how to write comment which is a PADU one.better dont comment at all.you dig?

so here is the best comment ever:

to allow or not to allow.i'd say i dont read much on this issue. because it's clear cut, they (err, the 'government') will not allow it. majorly on political reasons. i mean, everything is political. kan? and it's sickening to watch the parliament on show. macam cerita komedi. anyway, honestly, i dont have a stand. because i dont read much on the issue. takut2 menambahkan dosa yg dah berkarung. tsk. but having read your post, i'd say we cant argue much on the logic of them not allowing the usage of the word for any religion.

we know as much that politicians take a certain stand for certain reason, be it personal, to stay in power, etc.and we also know that the current government is trying to win back supports.

your argument on the matter is valid. macam apam cakap, nicely said. and for those who read and well informed (i mean membaca dari sumber-sumber yang tidak berat sebelah given the fact that our newspapers are very pro-gov and they dont reflect the actual situations sometimes) it's easy to see that there should be no problem if we are to allow the usage.

masalah ini sangat complex. macam ada MP cakap, boleh menimbulkan kekeliruan. now, do they really think that way? with all the education and experience, takkan lah nak confuse? macam tak valid sangat argument itu.

like you said, baiklah kukuhkan asas agama dari sibuk2 nak takut orang terpesong dengan penggunaan satu perkataan itu.

but i really do think, the politicians yang sibuk membantah itu have their logic. i mean it's rational. which is easier, to work for a change or to simply make a strong stand on an issue yang clearly dah ada supporters? many many supporters..

and talking about changes, i think, while you have access to those materials, the majority of malaysians dont. and also, there is a question here. and we malaysians on average read too little book per year. you read bible when u were little but how many of us even read outside newspapers and classroom texts at all? we now have access to internet, vast amount of reading materials.. but how many of us really read? i mean on a national scale? on average.. when majority really matters. and how many of us are opened to new ways of thinking? (i just asked a lawyer-to-be, friend of mine, she agrees on not allowing the usage)

we can surely work towards changes and the world is complex are there are too many interests at stake. betol, why cant people in charge get the information across? why cant we change? perhaps for now, the rationale is that, lebih senang in a long run, to fight a stand that is supported by many than to make change and get the majority to start thinking new.

human brain is rationale. it's just the way we want to rationalize things that differ.

p/s: thats why the first holy text is 'read!'

syabas!the comment made me wanted to write a better piece...but heck...too lazy :P

Emansipasi You tube

2009-03-15T20:54:00.003+08:00

baru usai menonton people & power. baru aku tahu italy yang majoriti penduduk beragama kristian katolik yang juga majoriti nya kita sebagai konon-konon melayu islam yang lebih islam benci nampak lebih mulia.beberapa sahajalah.

pernah kamu nampak perpaduan dan kemuafakatan masyarakat yang hinggakan father sebuah gereja membenarkan komuniti islam di kawasan itu menggunakan gereja sebagai tempat sembahyang kerana komuniti islam itu tiada tempat sembahyang (mosque are quite hard to be open and establish in northern part of italy.so they say.ouh, and the documentary too~) nobel!sungguh nobel kamu -father sudahLUPAnamaITALYkamuYANGsangatCLICHE-

apa pun saya tumpang menghormati anda tuan father

mereka boleh berkongsi tempat ibadat.PADU kan?

***
ni ade apa hal aku dengar kat Malaysia ni kecoh sangat nak pinjam pakai perkataan dalam kitab pon tak boleh ni? aku ingat Darjah 2 dulu ustazah aku ada cerita yang kristianiti itu adalah pesongan dari agama yang bertuhankan sama dengan tuhan Islam.Da lu ada apa hal tanak let go orang-orang tu nak letak nama tuhan tu dalam kitab depa?ha?takut anak muda terpesong baca kitab depa?ha? takut penganut islam pusing kepala syiok dekat kitab lagi satu?

aku dok rasa agama lain tadak pon Majlis Agama untuk setiap negeri macam Islam ni.dah ada majlis agama, kuatkan la foundation mana-mana budak yang nak pusing kepala tu.eh silap.kuatkan yang dari kecik sampai ke besar la.itu la tugas hangpa.bukan dok pakai serban abis tinggi, minyak attar kasi sakit idung tapi dok sibuk bincang baca yassin malam jumaat tu bidaah ke idak je tiap-tiap tahun.kan?

***
aku rasa aku nakal, aku buta, aku pekak, aku jumud tapi aku tak rasa la kalau aku baca kitab yang guna nama sama tuhan dengan Quran, aku nak terpesong.gila ke hapa?

***
p/s: my father let me read bible when i was young.not to de tour my religion understanding, but to make me understand more about the greatness of islam.
p/ss: i dont put my god's name not to disrespect but to respect it more as i dont think my shitty crappy blog a good place for it.its an Insult towards Him.
p/sss:i know what is sinful or not, but sometimes i am not an obedient servant.i did it because of me, not because of somebody in borneo use my god's name in their kitab

cheers~

Tag #10 things about

2009-03-12T14:28:00.002+08:00

two guys tag me.the #10 things tag.sigh~ and both guys are not even a like.so i have to do like 2 entry.but then i am too lazy to do so. so this what i can manage for now

tagger: Nazrin, KeeFoo

#10 things bout KeeFoo:

he is the only chinese guy that sokong kesultanan melayu (even i'm not fond of kesultanan BS)
super freaking hygienic guy
he smokes a lot (i find hygienic and smoking don't go well...but he did it)
skinny shit
got nice shoe (red new balance.have been always envied that shoe)
laugh out loud-is a must.....in class!
he stick to this one girl.i mean, come on dude~we are guy....but he is happy with that.good for you la
used to drive this oldies Nissan or Toyota (cant figure out which).never told him.but its fucking cool!
drive car like-what the fuck you trying to do?.never would i put myself in the car he drive
awesome guy!

#10 things bout Nazrin:

for 10 years friends called him APAM (apam balik, apam tepung beras, apam jagung etc.)
after Uni life i called him YIN (out of mengada-ngada ajuk his pengasuh calling him by that)
It fucking stick! and most of his new friends in Bangi call him by that.
He got a job in UKM as an RA.
Leaves alone in rumah sewa which is quite dodgy but cheap and good location.
Just went into OR in HUKM yesterday, watching a knee removal and replacement surgery.which i find it freaking awesome and brilliant.
One of my best friends that make me realize.quality over time that matters
My personal loan banker
Never ever had he be particular or fuzzy when it comes to money (baca: his wallet is my wallet)
i fucking love him like i love azman and zaki and zainur and ALL~ my f-ing friends that make my life better than shit dung hole!

***

#10 things about ME:

i am a sensitive son of a bitch.
i am a nagger
quite annoying at times
not very fond of marriage
just landed two jobs.
heavily attacked by migraine and i don't fucking know why.
cant be away from friends more than 3 days.else i fucked up
cant be consider the most eligible bachelor
easily deprived by stupid things
got stung by a Love bug and never cured :P

#10 people i wanted to tag:

A
Z
M
A
N
A
Z
I
Z
Zainur

ok.cukup 10.

cheers~

White Mountain WildFlower- A definition of its own

2009-02-28T19:22:00.005+08:00

Some people been complaining bout me not writing anything.yes i admit that my life is not busy at all.i dont have jobs, i dont have a busy social life, i dont have to take care of toddlers.but i still have the right to lie down on my bed all day long staring at my laptop doing nothing.do i? so here it goes.i try to crap from scrap

***

I have a friend.my friend's name is "white mountain wild flower". the meaning of my friends name actually.well let make it simpler WMWF.its a Persian word.the name.and the meaning is WMWF.i discover the meaning while trying to browse for Azerbaijan.A country that was a soviet union that I dare to bet on my precious family jewel that not a lot of people knows about the country.I am sure of that.I put my fucking family jewel you dick head!that is how sure i am.

anyway, it seems that WMWF is a common name for the Azerbaijan before being colonized or perhaps being "absorbed" into the SU.Well, they love to have a beautiful name i guess, because the other common name i forgot what, but the meaning in Persian is a "garden full of flower"

enough about that.lets analyze WMWF and my friend.do they fit? does my friend portrayed by the name given? alas, Mr Jason Mraz did says : "our name is our virtue"

*NOTA KAKI*

(perhatian: sila mengutuk sekeras-kerasnya tindakan zainur malam semalam yang berlagak dapat ke konsert jason mraz.segala kecaman yang wajar adalah perlu kerna tindakan beliau yang melampaui batas dogma-dogma seorang rakan.ceh!)

*NOTA KAKI TAMAT*

Lets get started by defining the WMWF.

White portrays the innocence, the virgins, the cleanliness and most of good value being symbolized by the color.
Mountain- Symbol of great strength, great achiever, symbol of the level of human aspiration, also as the center of attention.
Wild- Active&Adventurous, Can endure great challenges, persistent, determined and never give up.
Flower is beautiful, considered as a sweet and romantic things, very delicate and fragile, good smell, aesthetically pretty, comforting and soothing.(general fact.accepted by others).
White Mountain Wild Flower- please do the above equation and you will get the answer

well.to ponder back about my dear friend whom this unique name belongs to, my friend did have all those virtue and quality of what i have learnt and wrote about the beautiful White Mountain Wild Flower (*turks n kurds refer it as a Wild Rose):

well, to my friend which happen to be a WMWF, you are such a good friend, and you deserve to be praised and somehow publicised like this i guess.i am a bit short on money or gold to pay you for what you have done to me all this while, but the very least i can do is this.

cheers~

:::::EDITED:::::::

Zainur- derived from Zaina and Nur.which means the light of beauty or beautiful light.which ever you want to interpret it.I admit zainur is a hottie (once with the mushroom hair) and she is very good in guiding and motivating people (though she cries a lot) like a ray of light; making people happy and cherish their life (by teasing her till she broke to tears).

still hating zainur.....sigh~

Update....

2009-02-22T20:17:00.002+08:00

kadar kelajuan internet di rumah sungguh mengecewakan.

dok rumah memang cakap banyak tak guna; BOSAN.tapi orang tanya pasal apa aku tak tulis blog, netsurf, FB-ing,donlod Movie. dengan lantang; nak donlod kejadah ape internet slow macam nak haram.aku nak update particular things yang important pon sangat lah malas.tu important things.kalau da runcit-runcit yang kacis-kacis jangan kan nak update.never cross this effing mind to do so pon.

anyway, mahu tulis tentang penggunaan dinar emas and i am damn interested to know about it.but heck.my passion and my willingness to learn are only up to the reach of my internet.so....it explain why i havent write about it though im interested in such things.blame the net~ boohoo!!!!

"macam cool guna dinar emas yang boleh mengurangkan/tidak langsung ikatan ekonomi dengan wilayah-wilayah benua-benua barat dan Uncle Sam"

"Dinar emas bergantung pada nilai emas"

ok.that is the only 2-points that made me awwed by the power of the gold and the usage.but too lazy to do self research.sigh~

so to those who knows better than me, enlighten me.write a comment about it.better yet.write a full post on that thing.PADU!

Self Update for those who are interested to know:

Still jobless
Attended several interviews
Planning to do Master study
In the process of applying for Master study
Fall in LOVE with................myself
Planning for TAMAN NEGARA TRIP
Had been spending a lot of time with Nazrin
As always, love to spend time with that guy
Oh.Azman too~ (Only these 2guys je i spend time nowaday)
Basically after Uni-life somehow make me somekind of loser
I guess...
My social network although grows a bit bigger
But the network seems to be weak
Becoming a bit expert in "Merajuk & Memujuk" Department
Neglect a bit my aim of tackling this one girl ("-_-) sigh~
Lots of excuses for No.15; one of them: still not ready
Been on a wild ride of an emotional roller coaster
Hoping and praying (errr..) so much that at least i got the interview
Especially BAKER HUGHES!!! (fuck it!! hate the fact that i have to write this down)
Seems like showing off and gloating.F.It
Somehow wanting to live outside of the comfort zone (No.10, Jln 2/20B)
Since Spain, have almost nearly to 0 cultural input
Haven't finish Sex,Drug&Cocoapuff due to some......
Sangap/Horny/ 'apa-apa perkataan yang dapat gambarkan seorang lelaki'
RINDU SOMEONE LIKE.... *dendangan lagu Moffats-I miss u like crazy*

****

Damn i am a bollocks and not cool at all.fuck it.lets blame....zainur.how about that? :P

Peng-umum-an

2009-02-17T20:20:00.002+08:00

been fucking long since i last wrote in here.some sort of an abandoned blog i guess.what the fuck.no one care.

so since i am fucking bored here in my town, i would like to propose to all those used to play footbal (read: rakan-rakan main petang.refer old post.too lazy to link) lets fucking do a game of futsal again! i am damn bored down here.where am i? near to KL.what the fuck! how can i be bored then? bbleargh~disgusting to even hear that.

TO: Freestyler/Picisan/Cambohore/TTP/anyfuckingwho

Dear Sir/Madam,

Lets have a fucking derby collition of futsal anywhere in Klang Valley and any format you would like to have.but i prefer the format that the TTPian play on the saturday nite.better!scramble up all the player, then mix and match so that every team is equal.then lets have f-ing fun you bollocks!!!!

i cant wait to play.i even save money for a new futsal shoes.come on dude/dudettes(Smackthat!) ayuh kita bertempur dengan gelak tawa bermain bola kecil dalam gelanggang!!! ramai boleh bergembira sambil jerit "pergi berjunub sama kamu" kepada pasukan yang tewas dengan sayur.baiklah.cakap banyak no use.

TO THE EFFING GUYS, ORGANIZE LA.contact aku sikit.susah nak organize.

***

p/s:apam cakap kalau mende ni jadi die xle nak join die ngaju.hahah...jom bakar die

the crapping begin

2009-02-09T21:08:00.002+08:00

its been 3month since the end of Uni.

its like embarassing thing to say but heck, i admit, my Uni's Bed is more comfortable than mine in my so called room.

thus, i assume that, the hedious and cranky bed make me ache my back very badly.fuck i am like and oldfolk.

i got this backache problem the worst was during internship.where i have to drive north of KL to south of KL everyday and i need to go through Jalan Kucing traffic Jam, Jalan Duta Traffic Jam in the morning and when its time to go back, its was uglier! Jam till my doorstep.That make me whine everytime i got home.

another time is when i play squash for the first time without stretching and later on decide to sleep on the hotel floor!(i was ask to sleep there since there is not enough bed for everyone) being a gentlemen, i give up a nice place for 'the girls'

oh ya, another time was when i hump too much?? oh bollocks! i dont think i have hump any creature.i am pretty sure.or have i?

anyway, my back problem come again.maybe because of the tremendous rise of the kingdom of belly making the crusade of 6 Pack Abs being drown.it increase the support of my weight to my back bone.

fuck it.too much to think about.

***

fuck all that.just enjoy my life.backache? to the hell with it.bear the pain dude.i was once a volleyball player (fail miserably), rugby player (fail like a squashed ducklings) and a soccer player (kick in the nuts as much as me being the first string).dick-head.no wonder.now i know why i am not an alpha-male greek-god looking athlete.

but i am awesome in some angle aite?

Surat untuk pem'BUTOH'

2009-02-07T15:45:00.003+08:00

azman,

aku tahu kekasih kamu jauh nun di bumi kelahiran anak mami yang gelang perlu sampai ke siku. aku juga tahu kamu bosan lepak rumah seorang diri yang secara langsungnya meningkat kan rate penggunaan lube anda.

kiranya, kamu bersyukurlah aku membawa insan yang sedikit jambu ke bilik anda untuk kita sama-sama berhibur dengan lawak-lawak kurang membina dan membaharukan informasi-informasi tentang hidup masing-masing.sesungguhnya, hubungan aku dengan si dia cuma rakan.oh ya, aku juga tidak lah sebiadap yang kamu sangka, bagi aku, bayaran RM50 untuk hostel tidak lah semahal mana jika aku mahu melakukan maksiat.tidak lah akan aku ejakulasikan diri ini dengan nikmat di rumah sahabat handai.apatah lagi rumah itu bersebelahan dengan masjid dimana laungan azan dapat didengari setiap hari.

sebelum berpisah, nantikan kedatangan daku dan pasangan aku (regardless of sex, sexual orientation,race,religion or political view) ke rumah yang berjiran dengan Harun Din itu dalam lebih kuran suku purnama.

Hasta Luego!

***

Thanks Azman for the Bangi Hospitality

cabaran 1: tulis belog

2009-02-04T21:08:00.003+08:00

GILA TEMBAM PUNYA ORANG

Argh...TONTON GAMBAR DAN ORGASME *malu*

perhati gambar di atas.

aku segak.

entiti lagi satu, hiraukan..dia sudah tembam..

pokoknya.itu dahulu sewaktu berduit.dapat berjalan dengan sesuka hati.

kini rumah, sekolah adik, kedai bonda dan WFH menjadi deretan rumah pertama, kedua, ketiga dan seterusnya.

punca? DUIT!

ada kerja jiran sebelah kasi tau; jadi insurance telemarketer.

telefon orang 8am-6pm ajak mereka buat insyuran mungkin.

kerja 5hari seminggu.gaji RM1400.

ah!malaslah.sudah kerja, berjalan itu hilang dari kamus.

taman negara, janda baik, pulau-pulau, banyak lagi belum proses

Mc Fillet penuh Dosa

2009-01-21T23:58:00.002+08:00

oh.aku rasa sedikit bersalah

tengahari tadi aku skip lunch.

bawa makcik kepoh pegi buat cermin mata baru aku lapar.

usya kedai sebelah aku beli dua biji burger ikan

selesai ratah aku sedar; McFillet dia sedap.

Sial aku makan McDonald.Nak rasa bersalah ke?

Rm8.40 tadi melekat di tubuh anak kecil inosen kah?

Puki punya nafsu makan.

-kenyang sampai malam

***

p/s: lain kali makan TGI

Peringatan Ramah yang agak Dodgy

2009-01-20T21:42:00.004+08:00

babi.lama tak menulis.rasa nak menulis lagi.ptuih!ayuh!

aku nak kasi peringatan ringkas dan ramah kepada rakan-rakan lah kan.

sejak aku balik dari tempat berlari cesc fabregas ni, soalan yang wajib akan mereka tanya;
"apsal muka banyak naik jerawat ni?"
lepas tu, buat-buat segan sebab takut aku kecik hati.brader~ nak tegur kena hati PADU! punya kering.anyway, aku tak terasa walaupun kamu tegur.sebab aku tak berapa nak kisah.natural beauty.aku kisah bila ada seorang tu tegur je.tapi dia memang tak tegur dah sejak-sejak aku buat-buat merajuk manja.kopak gak duit nak pujuk aku balik.bagi anda-anda yang tidak berkenaan asal jangan tegur tentang berat badan, size pinggang, kasut dan seluar jeans aku, kita masih cool!yang lain semua boleh tegur.oh!tapi kalau jumpe bonda aku, jangan tegur pasal aku naik banyak jerawat.aku rasa aku handsome.tapi bonda tak boleh anak dia kene tegur.ada jugak anta aku gi rawatan muka berkos ratusan yang tidak berfaedah.baik kasi aku, wat beli kasut baru.tak pun buat bela candy merah.

bak kata pepatah abang teluk intan; "hang nak muka putih licin buat apa.hang jantan! tak yob la muka cerah licin cam model Oil of Olay".aku setuju sangat.baru aku perasan, waktu universiti dulu, kelompok-kelompok bulatan sahabat rapat aku, sorang muka licin cerah lagi berkilat.itu da kena kitai abis rapat.naik segan mamat tu.fuh~

***

haha.ini boleh kata orgasme aku menulis untuk sekian lama kemalasan menulis.ambik!pancut dua kali.hahaha

p/s:toksah dok mintak la souvenir.aku memang jenis malas beli souvenir and tak penah mengharap souvenir.fair enough?

Rasa nak mengarut pasal .......cam tahi

2009-01-20T20:41:00.003+08:00

aku rasa cam nak menulis cam bodo

***

tiba-tiba rasa cam feel tulis pasal zaman dulu.aku mengaku, aku tak suka sangat sekolah lama aku (baca: sekolah dar tingkatan 1-3).bukan salah kawan-kawan sekolah.aku salahkan persekitaran dan juga kerajaan.aku dulu sekolah asrama, dengan kata mudah dari seumur 12tahun aku sudah berenggang dengan ibu bapa.apa entah kerajaan pikir nak kumpul budak ramai-ramai sumbat satu sekolah ceruk kampung.pasal famili aku hantar aku sekolah bundle ni, tolak tepi.zaman kecik.umur 12 tahun.apa tau?masuk-masuk sekolah, dok asrama.mandi ramai-ramai.semua lelaki.latar belakang cerita masih di Malaysia (baca:Negara ter paling Islam Sekali..[abaikan tatabahasa]) pelik amat la kalau mandi ramai-ramai ada gadis.itu aku tak bising kot.jumpa gadis time gi dewan makan, riadah and kelas.tapi time dewan makan haram nak dok sebelah makan sama-sama.mau balik dewan makan kene tabur ngan senior.kamu gila?aku baru umur 12 tahun.mau tak takut kene pukul?time tu otai gak la sikit-sikit.kerek pon boleh la dekat budak-budak batch sendiri.orang kata otai runcit.bukan pasar borong punye barang.time kelas pulak memang sah-sah la duduk tu sebelah laki.gile kamu nak duduk sebelah perempuan?mau tak melenting usztaz Ros***? (*tingkatan 3, kami rebelius 2bulan duk sebelah perempuan.last-last kene sound gak.Hambik!) kira-kira nak lepak ngan perempuan ni time kerja kumpulan yang cikgu kasi la.aku bukan barang yang jumpa tepi tangga lepas tu dan-dan ringan-ringan.kotor siot tepi tangga.debu cam haram.mau nak stim gitu?kalau time riadah, bila masa kamu nak usya gadisnye yob? sibuk dok wat lari bola.time aku dulu sibuk men kriket, dok tadah la tangan nak tangkap bola keras macam haram.once upon a time kene family jewels aku.sakit memang la macam nak gi lempang brader senior setahun tu.baling bola laju-laju wat the fuck.main petang je haram!luckily gadis-gadis tiada time scene tu.gila kamu malu la tebaring sambil dok gosok-gosok family jewel.

cukup pasal gadis lah.orang tanya aku apsal aku kecik gila terkebelakang itu.aku jawab dengan penuh kasih sayang: "ape ko bodo sangat.aku ni melayu.bukan mat salleh.umur 12tahun air mani pon belum tentu ada dalam family jewel aku.dah tu sah-sah la aku kecik.standard la anak melayu besar lambat.ni ha ak da besar ni.apa tak bising?"
orang tukang tanya pun malu-malu la:"haha.ingat hang da pancut time tu"
aku lenting skit:"gila hang.12tahun la bodo! aku tak masturbasi!!"

itu alasan ngan kawan-kawan la.kalau makcik-makcik rumah sebelah taman sebelah yang datang rumah saje-saje nak wat havoc rumah aku tanye; aku biasa jawab:"makan cik..saya segan nak makan kat sana.gulai macam air longkang.ayam half cook bajet kite anak mat salleh.dok raub je pon.tu belum kira sambal cicak nasi lemak, sayur lemak cacing kumbang, roti canai kulit kayu.dah tu mana nak besar nye saya makcik.tekadang-kadang, ade la senior gampang pau plak stok biskut saya.kalau amik sepeket due saya bole kasi la.setengah tin pon tara hal.ini satu tin ngan sepeket oreo saya sorok pon die amik.mane saya nak besar.."
makcik-makcik tu biasa senyum je.mana paham.sume borjuis dok KL.

dok asrama ni orang kata memang la banyak untung abe.kawan kenal satu malaysia.abis skola nanti network banyak nak meniaga MLM pon senang.dok asrama tu, dah kalau kawan satu malaysia die dok sumbat.macam-macam perangai la jumpa.yang dok mencuri dok mencuit mencilok barang orang tu toksah nak ceghita.memang paling panas la kan.mak aku kasi aku duit biase-biase sebulan RM20.bapak ak jenis malas nak amik slip gaji, walaupun aku layak nak dapat biasiswa, memang aku tak dapat la.orang lain sibok dok dapat rm50 sebulan kerajaan kasi.beli walkman, beli sluar snail/chargers.memang cool la kan.balik cerita pencuri ni, aduh....aku duit memang makpak tak kasi banyak.tapi pakai memang cool la.kasut diadora cun punye ala-ala skaters.time tu mane orang pakai lagi.selipar adidas,sandal tommy hilfiger, kasut kickers beb.teliur je senior-senior tengok.sume mende tu ade lekat kat aku dalam sebulan.lebih pada tu jadi hak orang lain dah la.menangis gak aku kecik-kecik dulu.kasut kickers kesayangan hilang.babi punye senior.aku gi mintak balik selamba ngaku die punye.

kalau da kumpul satu malaysia sumbat satu asrama, jangan pelik ar kalau istilah jambu-jambu ni dok main pusing.meh nak open cerita.skola aku ade je gadis-gadis seberang dewan makan.tapi yang ade gadis, ade je jambu sorang satu.kalau mane-mane junior masuk muka putih cerah bersih berseri badan pon kurus-kurus ala model.jaga la bontot lu dalam taun depan kene la tu.tunggu masa.aku masuk f1, ade f4 kene buang.dengar kata kuat gak die nyontot budak jambu junior.muka die memang xle bla ar.time tu aku da rase macam masuk jail sial!mau kamu tak takut?ah.jgn dok salahkan senior la yob.kadang-kadang sama-sama geng pon jadi.tapi tak pulak la kene rogol.bila dah dok main tido sekatil tu.mula-mula gurau.lepas tu gurau lagi.esok lusa ada gak la pancut.tapi pegi sekolah siang tu ringan-ringan plak ngan awek kat tepi tangga debu-debu.umor 13-17.lelaki mana tak sangap?yang cerita alik aspuri aku tatau la plak camna.ade gak kot.dorang sangap gak.kan?

da kalu dok kumpul gak ramai-ramai satu sekolah, yang gadis pon bertindak liar.ade je aku kenal gadis-gadis belasah budak.gila otai.itu aku pikir da bukan main-main punye otai.gadis ni kalau da tahap belasah tu memang UP! la.lelaki ni memang tak payah amik port.kalu da macam-macam jenis ada.gaduh tu biasa la.kene panggil tiap-tiap malam ngan senior tu biasa la.kene tabur tiap-tiap malam ngan senior tu biasa la.kene pukul sebab buat point awal tahun, tapi sampai tahun depan depa dok pukul lagi tu biasa la.dok himpun semua suro tido ramai-ramai satu blok.memang la ade kene pukol.

***

time kat perantauan aritu makcik aku tanya aku; "dok asrama bagus kan?rasa macam nak anta anak cik kat asrama sini lah.sekolah semua lelaki.biar die dok kawan ngan mat salleh-mat salleh tu.baru la berdikari"

aku jawab la elok-elok da name makcik aku; "entahlah, tak tau saya nak cakap cam mane.elok la kot da cik rasa cam tu"

dalam ati aku cakap; "gila.skola dok malaysia pon macam-macam aku tengok.nak sangat anta anak kawan ngan matsalleh jangan dok tekejut la kalau die dok wat adegan panas ngan mat/minah salleh nanti.dorang lagi horny kot!lagi-lagi time winter.aku pon horny!"

***
aku rasa gomen kene revise balik la idea sekola asrama ni.oh!mesti ada orang kat sapa iman kuat xde nye rosak.meh aku sahut jawab; "puki la lu iman kuat.kalau da remaja tu, dok pulak tempat yang macam penendang, mesti ada punye buat monkey business.semua orang nampak baik kalau tak kantoi.dah kantoi? sendiri mau ingat la"

p/s:aku tak penah dok kata aku baik.hang pa yang label aku baik.i let you guys do the assumption kan?
p/ss:oh lepas tingkat 3, aku pindah sekolah racist.boleh tahan jugak lah.senario sama.yang beza?aku senior.aku la yang jadi celaka!

Si kacak berlagak muda

2009-01-19T22:28:00.002+08:00

aku rasa dalam gambar ini aku paling kacak.biarlah.gelaran itu selalu sangat aku dapat.nah! tonton lah

nearly 1 week after vacation

2009-01-18T23:29:00.002+08:00

i had a long week of familiarizing back myself to Malaysia.

Touch down and kinda kiss Malaysian soil on last Tuesday.

Wednesday witnessed my busy day of Bank,Money,Credit Card and ASB!

Thursday was potrayed with the busy schedule with Me,Nazrin,UTP,Clearance,RM1k++ being emptied from THE wallet.

Driving skills of a so called competent driver being tested on Friday

Emotional spilled accidentally on Saturday, same goes to so called the second career fair

Sunday? try ask Nazrin what it is all about?

now.i have list down all my reason for being busy after Spain.sorry to some people that kinda waiting for my text/email or phone call.i was damn busy and occupied back then.i am so sorry.now lets start a new chapter.

who wants to treat me lunch? nice fancy restaurant yeah?

Boycott - lelaki berkot?

2009-01-14T13:04:00.002+08:00

everybody has its own agenda.i guess?

well, today i notice that the so called "pulaukan produk-produk israel" sudah semakin menjadi-jadi.my family are the known loyal consumer of Gardenia Bread.since i can remember, there will always be a gardenia bread (white blue red with a bit of brownish on the side) laying there on the table for breakfast.but now heck, after 1month being away, gardenia is changed to somewhat a no-brand wholemeal bread.boycott?

just called my intern SV after being pushed by parents thus driving me straight to talking with her non stop till she said; "abiskan la duit tu gi kuar makan-makan, tp jangan makan McD, israel!" and i owhed and smile alone.then we end our conversation when my job status was well explained by her.

i sometimes wonder, when the government ask us to boycott the israeli product and all.the question that went to my head, if the government are serious with this, why in the frigging hell that the establishment and the product are still on the rack?i mean, if u want to boycott, stop importing and ban the product.

but someone told me, if we do that, our economy will crumble and falls apart because a lot of their product and all are the one that we consume almost daily or monthly.if we stop buying, the company that sells that in Malaysia will of course 'gulung tikar' that will create a void in government wallet.no business = no tax! then everything will be a nice big chaos of domino's effect.you get me?

so the conclusion of my self questioning and self answering i guess is; no hard feeling folks, but i do think that you doings of boycotting israeli product wont do much.if you stop buying things from them, america will still fund them.am i right or am i right?so why the hassle? *smirk*

anyway, dont call me a jew, because i am pretty sure that my IC still written there muslim.and i kinda pray 5 times a day.and yeah, i dont do the boycotting.why? i barely use or consume their product eversince.cool kan?

***

p/s: i love this weather and temperature even more.where i can go outside just wearing my CK butthugger without trembling and freezing.

hasta luego~ oh crap

Cheers!selamat hari rabu!

Winter "fareez" my Heart

2009-01-08T21:35:00.004+08:00

today (read: 6th Jan 2009; blame the lazy me to be drafting.just drafting that time) was kinda productive for me.i wake up early in the morning to do a sweet thing for my annoying cousin.i baked him an apple pie.really! i did it from scratch.and it taste good!that is what they say.any grumble or feels of discomfort by that comment, fuck off!!

ouh! so exciting.after i done (while waiting for it to be done la), i went for a sport session with ayah in,arief and hafez.first we play american football.then later play basketball!damn its not tiring but a bit out of breath.punctured!what the heck and the cold is the culprit.today was a bit cold.really cold.then after we all say "cukuplah", i just about to sit on the chair inside when the kids scream: "Abang Is its snowing!!!! arrggghhh..seriously dude..it is!" :) damn i was so excited like hell! off i move my ass and jump out just with shorts and tee-shrt.what a miracle.i have play with snow many times.but to see a falling snow and open my mouth and taste the snow flake? priceless!

***

enough about the snow la.lets get back to the pie making session!

***

my hands is a beauty art!

Sexy pose holding and stripping the pie upper crust

Trimming the edges gorgeuosly

The baked product! wallah~

Happy 16th Birthday to Aried dear fattie cousin (the specky guy)

***

to anyone who i admit that i can't cook, actually i was fucking bullshiting you guys.i do know how to cook, its only i am lazy and i pretend not to know how to cook because i like the idea of a guy cant cook!boo~ lame! spoil brat, not independance enough.well, i do admit that i dont know how to fry a sunny up egg (telur goyang) and i did make scramble egg out of it.i admit that i cant cook or fry a sausage or nugget or even burger perfectly.those shit, i dont know.but hey, i did not say that i cant bake, do pastries and some easy dishes like meat pie or fruit pie.i can.i can also do some dishes.too lazy to list down or gloat about it.

till i am not too lazy to cook, i will write some more about my cooking abilities

***

why i lied about my abilities? lets just be settled on:

i like to make other people looks good
i purposely wanted to make a person that knows how to do nasi lemak/ayam masak lemak cili padi and few varieties of nasi goreng to feel superior than me in cooking area
i wanted others to cook for me.make a cute face and admit that you cant cook making them melt and cook you the best meal they know!
i am lazy to cook.when people knows you cook, they will insist you to do one dish for them
i wanted to look like a typical spoil brat ;p
it is all about image.
i am too lazy to even say that i know how to cook.saying you dont make things easy
i have the cooking abilities in my blood from (both granny is the village caterer, father and mother was a restaurant owner, my mum and dad is known to be the best cook in our big family that consist of 40++)

this fucking entry is full of gloating and self pride.damn! i am fucking back you asshole!

hasta leugo~

Sedikit Sensasi Sepanyol

2009-01-05T01:26:00.002+08:00

semalam ada seorang penduduk madrid menyapa aku dengan: "ola"
kemudian kami rancak berbual dalam bahasa ayam-itik yang aku rasa tidak membantu pun.lantas aku dengan sedikit kurang sabar bertanya; "can u speak english?" dan dia membalas dengan riang; "yes i can"

argh!tidak tahu mahu marah kan dia yang tidak menunjukkan kebolehan bertutur bahasa inggeris atau memarahi diri sendiri kerana sedikit bongok hendak cuba-cuba berbunyi sepanyol celup.rasa mahu saja ajak berjunub!tapi fikiran kedua aku tidak mahu.kurang menarik jika bahasa berbeza.permintaan seperti mahu make out only mungkin akan disalah tafsir kepada mahu berjunub!keluhan~kesimpulan yang kurang mantap aku rasa bagi senora yang menyapa aku itu; dia mahu berkenalan, masakan tidak.aku kan kacak!disini memanglah wajah aku tidak setempan Terros La Nenos yang menjadi kegilaan dan idola.tapi wajah persis jantan latina campuran filipina membuatkan mereka-mereka cair juga.jadi,aku senyum jahat untuk menarik perhatian si senora tadi, ceh! dia termakan, terus mengajak aku makan ke kedai makan separa ekslusif di sebelah.aku mengangguk tanda setuju."cari meja untuk dua yah!"; itu mungkin ayat diucapkan si senora kepada pelayan sepanyol di depan aku.

kami duduk.aku lakukan sekali lagi senyuman nakal.si senora cair dan terus cuba-cuba menggesel kaki.ptuih!dasar!hilang mood aku mahu tease.terlampau mudah.buku menu di tebar di depan aku.baca sampai habis.selesai, aku bangun, senyum tawar kepada si senora dan berkata:

-Lo siento
-Tengo que ir
-Usted es dulce
-Hasta luego
-i no comer jamón

terkebil-kebil kesedihan si senora.aku pasrah bangun dan dengan sopan bersalam dan mencium pipi si senora (adat mereka, aku hormati :p ) pergi dengan bergaya.si senora sempat bertanya no telefon tapi aku senyum dan berkata:

"its better you dont know senora"

***

selesai, aku pulang naik teksi dari Diversia ke Paseo De Marquesa Veda De Aldama 16 dengan Euro7.bangsat!perjalanan tidak sampai 10minit.nasib perantauan dari negara hampir membangun

***

p/s: hang dok suro ceq apdet blog.ceq siap hampaq 2 ceghita lagi.hang bila lagi?dok loleh2 lagho lok laq cempegha apanya..vamos-vamos.tekan la keboard tu!

~Hasta luego

BRING IT ON 2009

2009-01-04T02:04:00.000+08:00

New year new joy new sorrow new journey,
some starts with laughter, some with cry,
does the starts counts? alas the journey that matters.
Most want it fresh, few don't even care,
I? I stands on the site that have a happy ending,
better than a great journey with a forlorn one.
For i had enjoy the pain of sorrow finish,
paid my due to the cycle of nature.
No.Not at all hoping for a jubilant year,
for I already knew the excruciating feelings of crushed hope.
Let the three words define this year,
"Suerte, Salud, Amor"

***
something for the new year.

I am becoming stupid this new year?

2009-01-03T03:28:00.002+08:00

for some reasons, my english is getting more and more and more stupid and rusty and whack job.i did realize it sometimes.but when some peoples are pointing it out.damn it makes me wonder.does spannish meals and thin air makes me dumb in english?maybe that is why they cant speak english.i guess!

**
triple check.no errors found on the paragraph above.i hope so

Suerte Salud Amor

2009-01-02T05:32:00.003+08:00

firstly sorry for being so~~~~~ silent.believe me i am too lazy in this winter

to Zarirah,

sorry xle nak buat your tag because this laptop happens to have NO song player.cheers aite!

to Zainur,

sorry its been too long since i update things with you and chat and what not.i am not busy.just not capable

to EVERYONE else,

do have a merry new year and i pray for a good 12months ahead to you guys.

and i will pray for you guys 3thing that i think is very-very cool:

"suerte, salud, amor" which means "luck,health,love"

cheers all!

Fakta Rawak Hari Ini

2008-12-22T23:19:00.003+08:00

Fakta-fakta rawak tentang Portugal yang AKU TAHU:

Peter Russel menyifatkan bahasa portugal adalah seperti Spannish yang di sebut oleh orang Pekak!
Aku rasa portugal hanya popular bagi aku kerana Albuquerque, A Famosa, Serani, Christiano Ronaldo (baca: aku dengar dia gay, tapi aku tidak kisah, mungkin Mena dan Zainur keciwa).
Portugal bersempadan dengan Spain sahaja.yang lainnya hanya lautan.Atlantic rasanya.sudah lupa ajaran Saied Saiedi.
Kaum Serani di Malaysia yang sekarang aku lihat tiada beza dengan acuan kaum india katanya mempunyai darah Portugis, dari Portugal.
Selain dari fakta-fakta di atas, aku tidak tahu tentang fakta menarik mengenai Portugal.hey, jika aku google, tidak menjadi fakta menarik yang AKU TAHU!
Uncle aku kata 29 December ini dia mahu ke Portugal, aku rasa-lah.sebab isteri dia yang inform me just now.
Portugal mungkin akan dipijak Mr.Suppa Duppa Awesome :)

***
Hari ini aku sudah lakukan 1 thing out of 10 things you need to do before leaving Madrid
- Bocadilla Calamares Euro 2.30 (Sedap juga sambil pusing-pusing Plaza Mayor sesudah window shop di Calle Fuencaral and Serrano)

Ahasta Luego~

ini khas untuk azman yang cemburu

2008-12-21T08:07:00.002+08:00

sambil mengangkat jari tengah dan dengah segak gahnye aku laungkan; "pergi berjunub sama kamu."

baru saja mahu memberi hadiah berupa sepasang kasut paul smith.oh! tidak perlu lah.aku mahu gunakan wang itu untuk sesi memanaskan badan :P kamu tahu hotel di sini dibayar dalam British Pound.agak mahal kan? tolak tepi itu kasut! heh!

I am seriously too lazy to update in this winter cold environment

2008-12-20T22:20:00.002+08:00

after 1week,

my rating for this vacation decrease from a firm 9/10 to 6/10.
why? because my fucking camera broke!fuck that! and the fucking cold mountain made my nose flowing with goo.FLU~ and some cough!

well as Man would say, SHIT HAPPENS! sigh~ i assume this all bad things happenings as my shit.so what? still got 3weeks to go.and i am pretty sure next week gonna be awesome?i am flying to freaking GREAT BRITAIN! for Xmas.hey u all bollocks! i'll be in big ben place! ceh! gonna rock i assume.because i have this sporting thick wallet cousin and also the guy that always is being wildly speculate with me; Mr Nazrin.i guess even vacation cant seperate us eh?haha.now that sounds gay.

anyway to those of you who crave for little something-something from here (madrid or london) stop wishing.because this De tour of mine have take the slice of pie that i should have been yours.the money i allocated for souvenir is now flowing to the DANA BIG BEN.am i cool or what?seriously i am awesome aite? giving you guys/girls hope of something-something then i snatch it!

well, i hate to write about my trip i guess.because i am too lazy.i did wrote it in a journey log i have.but i am too~ lazy to copy it and paste it in this

till i have the guts/will to write.

buzz off for now sucker~

Sebab Azman Suroh: 3rd Day in Spain

2008-12-16T18:20:00.000+08:00

ola~

writing in spain kinda hard.i mean the keyboard has this wierd looking signs and most of them make me feel clueless.anyway, its my 3rd day in Spain.nothing good happen yet.still chilling in the house.warming myself in the house.outside weather was effing cold! and windy.my lips already starts to dry.owh, the first day of me being here results to my finger bleed because of...i dont know why.the place where the nails is attached to the finger.that is, bleeding.anyway, i am known to be fragile by ML.so what the heck.my uncle house is cozy and all.huge and all.but being alone (read:not with friends i love to hang with) kinda boring.the kids and aunt are cool.

by the way, the garden/backyard of the house is enormous.its the size of 1 and a half size of football field.boy maybe im exagerating.1 football field.anyhow its still freaking huge.

i have been around the town of La Moralejas.its like bangsar or Damansara.they have 2-3 malls like bangsar village or 1utama namely Moralejas Green and some other that i couldnt remember.spannish names are long and wierd.i couldnt make sense out of it.

got hang on some of the spannish words;

ola - hello

kital- how are you

bien- good

itu- and you?

buenas- good day

por favor - please

pardon (read it like its malay) - excuse me

well i forgot some of the words they taught me. :-p

***

maybe today..MAYBE! i ll tour around madrid with Dayah and 2 of her friends.Maybe?yup!the uncertainty are because of the....ok i admit that stuck in a place where you can even say "i dont know" is hard for me.let say if i go to madrid, to go back to the house is kinda hard.no public transport near to Uncle's House.if u consider taxi is one, GILA LU! cost me Euro10-30 to get from Metro to the house.and if i walk, its going to be an hour walk.provided i remember the way.heh! bummer aite.anyway i figure out something later.

**

To Nazrin: Bon Voyage, take care of yourself there aite.its going to be effing cold in UK.obviously because its freezing here in Spain.Try to stay away from the wild eyes guys/ladies, although its hard for me to say this, you are kinda their target to snatch/thieves/rob/'rape' :-P .kiddin here bruv.hope you have fun touring europe and be safe and all.i do expect a nice handsome souvenir from you.

that is it senor senorita

-Cold Make Me LESS MELLOW!-

p/s: sorry if my writing is not good or lame.i dont have idea here.

Adios bebeh!

2008-12-12T16:24:00.000+08:00

señoras y señores,

Por la presente declaro que no voy a estar aquí para una
month.due a algunos extravagancia aventura i se
teniendo en ......

vemos en un mes ok? i mi mejor tratar de comportarse de mi auto y no DIVERSIÓN maldita cosa.

adios ~

Tinja.Sebenar Sebelum aku ditinja!

2008-12-11T13:04:00.003+08:00

less than 48hours i guess till im going to be jet off to some alien place and new culture.hoping for good journey and all.and i am hoping that i can avoid the sick and sucky feeling of needing my comforter (NOT A COMFORTER a.k.a TOTO).anyway, its going to be an adventure i guess.but hey, it gonna be a wild adventure if i can do this with my mate and buddy and totally depending on each other and myself without having to rely on uncle and sort.sigh~ not the time yet i guess.though for me, 21 is the prime year to do anything that is categorized with the tag wild and crazy.shoot! i remembered one thing that me and my buddy promise to do before leaving UTP.it consist of me, CIMB CCTV and an act of craziness.damn it! how can i forgot about it! it would be legend if we manage to pull that off.anyway, not all people can accept it.that is for sure.maybe it is meant not to be accomplished.anyway, i want to change to a better man.so, i guess leaving all those wild and sick thing can be the first step.i guess.because seriously i feel that my time to do foolish thing and horse around kinda reach the end.i am secretly hoping it to be NOT! though. *wink-wink* i still consider myself pretty young.stress on pretty & young.two virtue that i have :) not to say that i am a foppish kind of lad.i would take Mr.Joe as a foppish lad.but not me.owh, i just found out that word from the lame and boring activity yet comforting one; browsing Cambridge Dictionary. foppish lad(read:from the root fop; a man who is excessively concerned with his clothes and appearance).anyhow, enough about the word.where was i?

...

yup, me being matured.so i kinda flattered when there are people that consider me matured enough for my age.thanks!but i dont like to be seen that way, i like people to see me as incapable person.why? because when they undermine me and talk me out of anything that they are doubting me with and it happende to be that i can overcome all those obstacles that they doubt me for, i can say loudly and proudly after my motto (read: sambil meangkat jari tengah dan melaungkan pergi berjunub sama kamu) "i hate to say this, but i told you so!" yup!i dont need others to tell me that, i am a manipulator and attention seeker (proof:this blog and its crap).yet, i still dont care because, this is the way of me having fun.kan?nevertheless i try not to hurt others feeling la.others, meaning other people that i care about.i mean i care about their feelings.others that i dont? read back my motto.i know up to this line, this entry have been nothing else than holly crap.but hey, i still teach and enlighten you guys with a new words kan? foppish! sorry Mr.Joe for you being the example.take it as a compliment lah.at least i dont make a comparison of similarity between you and some hobos or some animal.you deserve to have a good comparison, and i have found a very good and handsome adjactive to describe you when people ask me who is Mr.Joe? i would simply answer he is some sort of a foppish handsome guy.about me, i like to describe people with one word that can make me remember them and it suits them well. like me tagging this foppish word with Mr Joe. i had tag some words to other peoples like altruistic(hard to tag to people it is a seldom act) snobbish,mellow,sweet,archaic,petite or dainty.anyway, i still cant figure out the difference between dainty and petite.i consider them to be the same, but hey, people and their thought! always want to be unique and different for others.want to look cool i guess.because i am so.i mean i think differently from others so that i can be look as cool! :) lot of people love me because the way i think.its true!

shit hell, long crappy post ever.talk about crappy blog with whole lot of BS (read: bullsh*t).ok kids, a lot of vocabulary here today.list it down and do make some notes somewhere.at least you are not only stuck with words such as beautiful and pretty.kan?

i am not the best in town,i know that.but i am better than some of you!

phrase of the day.arrogant kan i? *evilish smile non stop*

***

p/s: usuall shout out; i miss all of you guys badly.especially the one that can afford me at time like this, where i am broke and flat.

p/ss: let see if i can manage spannish senorita aite?

Sekali Sekala Bukan Selalu

2008-12-09T15:30:00.002+08:00

sekali sekala mahu mengada

sekali sekala mahu bermanja

sekali sekala mahu dimanja

sekali sekala mahu diusap

sekali sekala mahu dibelai

argh! sukar disini

siapa mahu belai?

siapa mahu manjakan?

aku yang perlu memanjakan semua,

semua mahu bergantung harap,

ibu dengan caranya,

ayah dengan caranya,

abang dengan caranya,

adik dengan caranya,

kakak dengan caranya.

aku?

siapa mahu manjakan aku?

letih aku fikirkan.

argh!baik saja jadi aku yang aku,

tidak perlu dimanja memanja,

tidak perlu dibelai membelai,

aku yang aku,

boleh hidup tanpa,

keras bagai batu, tegak bagai tiang,

Konkritkan pendirian,

Tak goyahkan?

Hati senang!

***

aku cepat risau, jangan benarkan aku menyayangi kamu jika kamu lemas dan serabut dengan kerisauan.ya, aku cepat risau.aku mahu pastikan insan tersayang cukup sempurna hidupnya.kan?

***

tidak perlu risaukan aku, selama ini tiada orang yang merisaukan aku.aku survive.cuma jangan mentahikan aku.balas saja kasih aku dengan senyuman paling kurang.asal jangan mentahikan aku.kan?

***

p/s: sometimes, things are not meant to be spoken, sometimes ignorance is a bliss and sometimes things are not meant for you doesnt mean that i dont love you.its just that, i am not fair at deviding my love.because i am a fool!

Love Fools

2008-12-09T12:10:00.002+08:00

Dear ML,

i am a fool in love.definitely.when in love, i did stupid things, for the sake of love.sigh~ love really fools even the brightest guy, alas i am not the brightest.go figure lah!

hopefully i am not that easy to be fooled! and LOVE, please have mercy to me and dont fool me that bad.because i am sometimes being foolish and bloody fool and sacrifice even my principles and stance for you LOVE.

Sincerely,

The Ultimate Fool!